Has the dawn broken?

Isn't it ironic that we used to think of being a grown up is something so cool and we get to do things we like, we gonna have so much freedom and basically being ourselves. However, as we grow older, things just seemed to turn their a**es back on us and how we longed to go back in time where the actual freedom being a kid under the wings was not well appreciated and till then, freedom now does come with commitments and gosh, how impatient are we at times! We just can't wait to get out of our moms' tummies to experience the sufferings of life, we can't wait to become an adult, we can't wait to get more and more money, we can't wait to have a girlfriend or a wife, and until the end, when we hope that life could treat us kinder by sparing us a few more moments with our loved ones, death, is already right under our noses. Which is why I used to write in one of my earlier poems saying that, 'once we're here, then we're not, once we live, it's a miracle'. What I mean here might sound morbid, but there is some humor in it in fact. Since we just can't wait to let time speed off, when fate is upon us, there's nothing we could do. And once we are already in the coffin looking all cozy and calm, once we breathe again and open our eyes, ain't that a miracle? ;-)

That would be just some figurative speeches that I like to throw in to make things a lil' bit 'saucy' XD

Not just that, even physically, being impatient is like juggling ourselves on a single thread suspended in mid air. Seriously speaking, I was an extremely impatient kid back then. Though I've changed for the better, I could still get jumpy at times. It made me panicked, sweat and basically disoriented. Now that I'm turning 20 in a few months time, being impatient is already not an option. Yeah, blame it on my hormones but at least, like what my mom said, you could always putt off the fire with your mind. HOW INSPIRING... xD now that's what I call the PHILOSOPHY OF LIFE YA'LL! haha

Here's a poem to which I've tried to express the fact that when things are meant for us, and if we deserve a wonderful dawn, it will come to us no matter what. All we have to do is to be PATIENT and the journey would be much more pleasant when we learn to let things go and anticipate for a warmer morning without jumping too fast into the chilly night. =)

Do enjoy this poem! It's called 'Has the dawn broken?'

Has the dawn broken?

For crickets are still singing away

from a distance,

far, far, away.

And the mighty rooster

has yet to make its grand entrance for the morning call.

Even the air is still masked

by a tint of jasmine blossom...

Has the dawn broken?

Will I ever be patient enough?

To endure through the pacing mind of mine,

painfully awaiting the hands of time

performing a metamorphosis

while I sit here,

with a reluctance of returning to slumber

and wonder,

Has the dawn broken?

Happy, happy new year

On a happier note, I've ended the dreadful year of 2009. =)

At the very least, towards the end of the year, life's little joys were sent to me when my life was picked up eventually. In fact, I felt totally refreshed and rejuvenated, at the same time, I think I've matured over the years and realized that there is not a moment better than to live the present to the fullest.

Apart from the inspiring realization, it had also dawned on me and I came to an enlightenment about the true meaning of friendship. =) It is when you do not count or measure the DIFFERENCE in an individual and even if the flaw in him or her is obvious, you do not and WILL NOT even take it into account.

=)

I've achieved what I've longed for and I've see through many things in life. It is an endless journey through the kaleidoscope of life =D

Happy new year guys! Can't wait for Chinese New Year, my studies and my 100th poem =)

O how my life passes by

Here comes the sun, here comes the rain,
Here comes the fun, here comes the pain,
O how my life passes by.

This could very well being engraved on my tombstone when I return to the earth's slumber.
I tend to ponder quite a bit on the moments of life that brought me here to this point today. All the what-ifs, the questions seemed to tumble upon me, making me feel so, imperfect, vulnerable. There went my poem, 'a soul to weep', there went Carey's 'Memoirs of an Imperfect Angel'. Never did I experienced a day without comparing myself to the mass, never did I have the chance to just appreciate myself and not pushing myself too hard till I crumble, and yes, I never did. It is just recently that I've finally cleared my mind and made myself occupied with some stuff, only then I slowed down a little. When one is not tied up to that particular feeling that clung on to you a while ago, once it came back in fragments, gosh, how unbearable.

It's almost Christmas time but I'm not sounding festive at all. But argh, what the heck, as if there is ANYONE at all that cares about my blog. Call me vain, call me a sucker, call me a loser, and yes, I am. To hell with it.

Have I ever proved myself right? Have I justified my points clearly? For you people who just loved to judge, you tell me. Wait, hold on,

Keep it to yourself.

Not because I'm afraid, but because I'm fed up.

I gave up.

Nothing but bliss

Bliss Bliss Bliss...nothing but Bliss =)

At the moment, indeed there's nothing but bliss. I'm having my income (not a lot but still...), I treated my parents to a nice meal, I bought my much anticipated mp3 and earphones, I'm getting a new laptop tomorrow and most of all, I got my results, which I NEVER NEVER EVER dared to expect especially the '2-word' grades- High Distinction. To even think of it is like sitting on the same couch with Mariah Carey drinking champagne...but it so happened that maybe I couldn't get Mariah, so SOMEONE ABOVE decided that I shall be granted 2 HDs XD haha...not that I wanna boast but...the truth is, I had LITERALLY...listen up, LITERALLY given up on one of my papers which a HD popped out when I checked my results...goodness..it really gave me a heart attack at that exact moment! TAlking bout IRONY, I only got 2 credits for both Psychology and Communication...guess I gotta switch my majors to International Studies and Management! xD Nevertheless, I'm really grateful and blessed for what I've got..though my GPA is positioned at 3.0 out of 4, I'm totally humbled by my results and the only thing now is to work even harder to eliminate all the credits and maybe score some Distinctions and more HD's in future =D

Other than that, I just have to leave it to HIM =)

You see, the exams were the only one that had got me so worried that I even dreamed of failing the Management paper. So basically, I have not been freed since the last day of exams, so to say. But the psychological prison released me after knowing what I got. Yes, my results might not even be a good one, let alone being impressive to some people, for a person like me who did not really had much of a academic record, this is like winning a goal medal. Daniel, you got what I say =D oh and by the way, congratulations to you too Daniel for scoring 2 HD's as well =D yay for us!

*Fireworks going off with clinks of glasses ;-P*

That would be after you return from England =D

So, apart from this blissful moment, I had also bought my fabulous 2GB Sony mp3 with superb sound enhancing system and a fantastic in-ear earphone to compliment the richness and goodness of music which I even longed to take the train to my workplace just so that I can indulge in my music with 50% of noise blocked by the RM 80 earphones xD It was rather expensive but heck, it's worth the quality!

Then then then...I'll be also getting a laptop as my uncle had wanted to surprise me with an early Christmas present. It was meant to be a surprise but my mom blurted it out because she can't stand lying to her own son xD hahaha! So I guess, I'm blessed in a way as HE still loved me =)

Also, I had a splashing time for half a day with my family since this morning. I treated us to a heavy breakfast which we then went shopping around hunting for Christmas presents and treats for both ourselves and for my cousins before having lunch cum tea...ended up with ate more than we walked xD the food in Pavilion is really good...the restaurants are superb and the Food Republic is simply splendid! Went home with bags of goodies and when I thought of getting some personal items, my mom asked me to buy in Singapore which we'll be going this weekend and I was like... =_=''' you actually want me to go ALL the way to S'pore just to get my underwear FOR EXAMPLE...Mom can really drive us all nuts at times...

Still, I had a blissful December =)

I love my results,
I love my family,
I love my poems,
I love my mp3,
I love my vanilla ice-cream and
I love my Honeydew sago dessert =)

Updates...

Hey ya! Gosh, it sure feels like ages since the last post! Alot had been going on and I am actually blogging right from the computer in the marketing office here in Methodist College! XD Funny thing that I was the first one to reach this morning and normally, either one of my superiors would have already be in the office before me and I was wondering if...I wasn't notified about something that I should have known?! O.o Hope not but maybe I shall try to sniff out the reason why my bosses are late! Sounds like a typical office's 'gossip mafia' xD hahaha

And yes! For your information I am employed to be as an intern back in my home college MCKL to be working with the marketing department. Yea yea...I know what you guys are thinking...It's not a glamorous job, the pay isn't as high as those outside..but hey, what counts is the learning experience and furthermore, I think my pay is rather reasonable and at least I am not underpaid! It wasn't so bad working here after all xD I am still glad that I was given the confidence to counsel some basic stuff to the parents since I was an ex-student =D and the good thing is they could get a perspective of a 'living example' regarding the culture and students' life =D Started working on the 18th and till date, I've been working at MCKL for almost 3 weeks.

So far it has been rather eventful for these 2 weeks, Attended Mei Sann's wedding on Saturday and celebrated Jian Fung's and my brother's birthday on the Saturday as well. Now that I'm already earning my own money, instead of thinking over and over again, I felt that I can actually afford to make quick decisions while buying or having to pay for something and THAT IS A BLOODY GOOD FEELING =P But of course, big spending is a no-no for me. In fact I just planned to purchase whatever necessary stuff that I've been wanting for a long time and maybe treat myself to something more than the usual. Not forgetting to 'belanja' my family to a nice and fancy meal hehe.

The outing with the Behs and Harry was really good. Went Italian for lunch and English for tea xD oh and Mei Sann, CONGRATULATIONS! =D she seemed so tired on that day..well I guess this is kinda typical for every bride on their once-in-a-lifetime moment huh?

My English is SERIOUSLY DETERIORATING....

Alright, that's all for now, will update more on my life later on!

Adios!

I'm waiting

Still waiting to compose my 100th poem.

At the same time thinking to myself how useless can I be and listening to some Mariah

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Waiting, thinking, vanishing.

I want to know what life and love is.

Memoirs of An Imperfect Angel

Hey there! I've been so lazy to blog recently...the post-exam mood is alive and kicking! haha Though it didn't went well, (unfortunately =( ... ) But life goes on and all I could hope for is to get at least a Distinction and a Pass for Management...enough said...I do not want this post to sound depressed...we've much to be depressed about, don't we?

Anyways, holiday before working in MCKL has been not too bad so far, I wouldn't say awesome, but it is reasonably okay. Been to Malacca last 2 days and I've finally bought my copy of Mariah Carey's 'Memoirs of An Imperfect Angel' =) catchy huh? Till today, this is actually my favorite album of all after 'The Emancipation of MIMI' and 'Butterfly'. What drawn me to my attention the most is the fact that she took the risk and made this whole album as a 'novel', a memoir, to be precise. Despite the fact that the Billboard and charts are towards fancying singles and individual hits, Carey had indeed taken a big leap in the industry by giving her fans something out of the ordinary and if I'm not mistaken, this is the first album that actually has a flow between all the songs in the particular arrangement and tells a different story of her live. 'Betch gon' know' is first on her album and it opened with:

'Welcome to a day of my life, the Memoirs of an imperfect angel...'
And what's more, the so-called 'sound-the-same' music had appealed to me through and through. Yes, all of it might sound the same, but the elements are actually combination of music styles of past albums. There are pop-chart friendly songs, RnB, soul, ballads and who can forget her 'oh-so-high' vocal acrobatics - the whistle register =D

So far, there are some songs that had really touched my heart, there are songs that had made my friends teary-eyed, and there are songs that had made my friend became more appreciative of her music =D For more information on Carey's album, do visit the blog of another hardcore fan of MC, my friend, Kelvin =)
www.kelvinkuankahmun.blogspot.com/search/label/MARIAH

Without much talking, I just wanna introduce you guys to some of favorite numbers in this album. First up, it'll be Languishing(the interlude) and I want to know what love is. I've put up before, but here is the official music video that captured the simplicity of 'love' =) not her best, but it's worth watching. I'd suggest if you'd listen to Languishing first as these two songs are in a way connected, not just musically but emotionally. Only then you'd be able to get the flow and appreciate the last tune more =)





Angel's cry. No too much of everything =)one of the songs with the best lyrics ever!



H.A.T.U.




'We are all humans, we are all imperfect' ~ Mariah Carey
Welcome to day of Choon Hui's imperfect journey, a memoir to be shared =D

Life could be hysterical

Hey there peeps! As I've promised (and broke it XD) to post a poem right after my last post, here it is. The tittle might sound a lil' bit off and out of the ordinary cos, well..that's the whole point you see XD it's called 'Hysterical'.

The weather seemed to be having its own 'mood-swings'..well, you can't help it when when we call her 'Mother Earth' =P

So, as hysterical as the tittle sounds, this poem is also a piece to depict the turmoils and crazy storms that invade our lives every now and then. What we could do is just to observe, endure and stand up from the fall. And hey! it's OK when your life got hysterical once in a while =D

(Hysterical)

Water droplets fell,

Almost mist-like.

Showering the outside world,

Came with the wind.

On the ground they fell

Countless broken marbles.

Drops, drops, drops…

Millions they dropped.

The dancing tree,

Seemed delightful,

Hysterical.

Oh and by the way, this is my 99th poem =D

Raining of thoughts...

Somehow, the weather actually stands a huge part of the significant representation of our mood, or should I say feelings?

Was raining heavily right after I took my first finals examination yesterday - Psychology. I wonder if it was just a mere coincident or perhaps an omen hinting me the worst was yet to come, or telling me how unprepared and how deserving I was for feeling bad about the exam. And yes, I did not have a casual and cheerful thought despite the completion of a much anticipated paper. Of course I wouldn't say that I'd gave my all but I dare say that I've tried my best. Much more than before. So, a regular downpour or a sign?

I wasn't too happy about it while I was sitting there in the library, facing the open compound while trying to read up some articles for next week's International Studies when the sky was so dark and out of a sudden, it rained like there was no tomorrow. As I was trying to concentrate, a stream of words just came into my mind...after a long time, the fountain of poesy came alive and halfway constructing a poem, Fatin came along and we just went for a tea at the cafeteria which offered no 'happy food' according to Fatin, my lovely course mate XD

And today, Danny, a good buddy of mine came over, supposedly to study, but ended up chit-chatting for the whole afternoon while having lunch and apparently his legs were itching too as for mine XD so we decided go for a jog later on as I really need one since my belly is becoming more prominent (haha..) In fact the weather was kinda 'moody' I'd say xD but I sorta guess that it wouldn't rain but Danny insisted that it will...and we had a bet...

Why the heck am I sounding more and more monotonous? It's like I'm writing a lap report....

Anyway, back to the topic...so we had bet and that sneaky fella got me promised to post up my after-jog photos on Facebook which I was so reluctant to do so...'dahlah aku tak photogenic, then peluh kuat pulak...' sigh~ oh by the way the photos are on fb...and plz don't check it out if necessary xD

While we were almost reaching the other side of the park, we had to make a detour as it was already drizzling and I thought that we could just run home in time before the rain got heavier but lady luck wasn't on our side and certainly no more ON MY SIDE! and that's when I lose my bet..yay~ =_='' it was already quite heavy when we tried to run into the nearest porch available and thankfully there was still room available for the 2 of us but my goodness, the wind was so heavy until it further drenched our clothes....

It was kinda awkward as we were sweating and panting like mad dogs and imagine this: *when we ran in, everybody just stoned and roll their big eyes over us and when we turn back, everybody resumed to their conversations...we were like...=_='*

Seriously, what's so 'dramatic' about us? Tak pernah tengok orang putih ke? atau tak pernah tengok orang berpeluh?

...

But in a way it's kinda funny as well judging by their expressions and looks..haha

We were literally stuck for almost an hour and at point we peculiarly ran out of conversation and this was when I went into a deep thought while watching the downpour. The rain almost, always has an effect on me when I'm drifted off into a sea thoughts...

I was imagining that if the place where we were standing was a boat, or a ship and the only difference was this boat was immobile, and I was thinking as we were running into that little 'hut', it just overwhelmed me that this could be a safe haven for us and I felt sheltered and thankful that there's still a place for me before being carried away by the 'sea current'. As the wind got stronger and so did the millions of water droplets. That moment in time, it was as if the forces of nature was gonna tear our boat apart and when I felt the chilly wind accompanied by the rain hitting on my back and my shoulders, I even saw some children running into their parents' arms and tugging their little heads into the warmth of their parents after hearing a load roar of the thunder, flashed with Zeus' thunder bolt. The rain got heavier and heavier by the second, and feelings of helplessness and vulnerability just kicked in and I wonder how long would we still be trapped here? and at the same time I was also wondering if I'd get sick since I was sweating so badly when the wind was howling away and freezing my body to death...worst still, I was wearing a thin material which was furthermore sleeveless...*shivers* I could not bring myself to reality until Danny nudge me by my tummy and realized that the rain had subsided...how long I've been in a 'trance', I seriously couldn't tell. One thing for sure was that I felt slightly cheerful than before as the worst turmoil had passed us by and what was left was the last drops from the clouds. Thinking that we might be able to leave soon, yet again, I was thrilled by a sense of gladness and gratitude that the boat could finally sail on a calmer sea and we'd all be reaching the land and leaving the sea soon. How great was that. I've tried to relate this to Danny, but I guess we're just too tired and distracted to listen to each other, so I've decided to blog it out.

Yes, the rain somehow made me came out with all sorts of funny imaginations (which most people would relate to) but as for me, it's like a life experience.

We begin our journey,
we met obstacles along the way,
we felt that life just doesn't treat us kind,
but if we're strong enough to persevere, to endure it all,
and not make stupid decisions like jumping into the sea and tried to swim, in our case, tried running home under the rain and got sick,
troubles will eventually vanish, and as I've blogged before,
there would always be a rainbow after a wash,
and off we go again, continuing our journey
under a bright sunny sky,
till we reach our desired destinations.

Yeap! that would be all for now and before my readers got sleepy enough after reading this post, here it is, a more 'decent' photo of me (though not for the actions xD), at least I'm 'dried' at last..haha

I was actually yelling at Danny to stop taking my picture and who knows he handled the camera so well until he caught me in this 'bitchy' pose XD

Till then and I'll post up a poem tomorrow IF I could complete it by tonight =D

Have a nice evening guys!

Those little brats...

UGH!!! Those pimples!!!! Why can't you just leave me alone? And why does it had to happen to me? It's easy to tell me that maybe I do not have a proper face hygiene (which is SO NOT TRUE) or to tell me to try this and that, even to comfort me saying that oh they'll disappear soon enough later in time...b-l-a-h...

Yes, I am severely attacked by the 'polka-dots' and implanted more than 30 scarring bombs that seemed to be random enough to 'generate' more pimples and having a certain season where they'll be blooming their way through...I just hate it...

I HATE PIMPLES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

At times, no matter how much junk I've ate, nothing will happen but when I really took care of my diet and sleep, they're apparently playing an opposing game with me.

I've tried all sorts of products and eventually, I really gave up...found a product on net which seemed to be really effective and people who underwent the program achieved a 100% success in vanishing those pimples...but the only thing is, it's too pricey =(

How I envy you guys who have clear and glowing faces... =(

Thought of blogging about the Singapore trip and about the High Distinction that I scored for one of my major assignment, but after looking into the mirror, there goes my mood. Sigh~

It's becoming cold

My blog is seriously dying off...the intention did came into my mind to discontinue blogging for the rest of my life...apparently I'm the one visiting blogs and the amount of comments I'd left on chat-boxes is more than I the amount I blogged in a month. Yeah...I guess I know the reason why and reckoned that perhaps it is my posts that bores people off...oh well...that's my life you see and guiltily speaking as well, part of the reason that I do not blog often is because I-AM-LAZY XD ta-dah! and to me changing the fonts, colors and sizes of the wordings is just so troublesome....so that explains the monotonous fonts that I've been using FOREVER xD

So, another week after the semester break and I've just handed up 3 assignments upon reaching Friday and all I could say that I think I did RUBBISH...for the first time in my life, I never had to do 3 assignments in a week...and mind you, it's never wrecking....just a friendly advice...to you guys out there who are still not enrolled in any universities yet, PLEASE enjoy your life as much as possible until you receive your tertiary education. Hmm...maybe it's just me...the not-so-smart-one...forget what I say, perhaps you guys are way better than me academically =D

Another 2 assignments pending and scheduled to be handed up next week, Wednesday and Friday consecutively which means that I am still procrastinating to complete the Psychology Lab Report t_t

As much as I've swore and vowed not to get in to that bad habit, I just can's seemed to take that sticky sticker off me...
Right after standard 6, I promised not to procrastinate but it carried on
Right after my first exam in Form 1, I vowed not to study last minute, but it never happened
Right after my PMR, I told myself to study beforehand and never wait till the last minute, it still carried on
Right after SPM, still...I kept on 'vowing' until the day I got in to Monash...

I guess I shall blame it on human nature?

At the very least, I am thankful the nature of me being anxious all the time did serves a purpose as I think I might have take things more seriously than before...at least for the assignments XD

Anyway, I am learning to be thankful for everything =D

Oh and before I log off, I really want you guys to listen to this. Not because she is Mariah Carey, but her whistle not at the end is by far THE BEST REGISTER THAT I'VE EVER HEARD! This song is called 'I want to know what love is', originally made famous by the 80's band, Foreigner. With a zest of RnB and touch of gospel style, Carey really spiced up that song.

My whole WEEK of mid-semester break

Hey peeps! Check out what I've done for the whole of my mid-semester break! It's fun!

-Gathering information for Communication Studies major assignment
-Having information overload
-Sitting in front of the computer for hours doing browsing 6 or 7 adds at one time
-Having information overload again
-Read through the prescribed readings again
-Gathering MORE materials for the assignment
-Noticing that I might have interpreted the question wrongly
-Almost sweared and cursed on Twitter
-Laze around in front of the computer O.o
-Losing all my mood to begin writing again
-Wasting time watching pointless video clips on YouTube
-Wasting MORE time constructing sentences for my essay
-Sitting in front of computer for another FEW hours to gather MORE info
-INFOMATION OVERLOAD ONCE AGAIN
-Walking around the house back and forth to construct sentences
-Almost knocked the computer out of it's casing
...

And it kinda goes on...a cyclical process... how INTERESTING my week huh? =_=

OK lar, at least, I did hang out a bit with my high school friends and going to Malacca this weekend....

Still, my essay is not completed...

But I'm proud to say that at least, I still hand up on time and while I procrastinate, I did my very best on everything and answered the question as it required (at least that is what I think) tsk tsk...

2 more assignments to go... X(

...

Honestly speaking, I'm through with requesting for help.

*Vulgarity might be present in this context. If you are anyway unprepared, kindly leave this page immediately. Thank you.*

That is the reason that I'd rather do things on my own than asking a simple favor from others and dealing with their ignorance and looking down upon.

Mind you, it's something as simple as just setting up an appointment with them to discuss some problems...yea...is not that difficult isn't it? From my understanding, it's plain pointless that if you don't wanna help sincerely, then don't do it. Or for the very least, tell me right in front of my face that you can't make it or something. My point is, at least, notify me if you intend to be absent or you are unable to provide the convenience.

You see I'm not that kind of people who love to take advantage of others. I'd remember you for life even if you did something insignificant as looking out for my bag while I am away, and the bloody reason that I come to you is because I know you are able to help me and plus, I ain't always bugging you, and you wouldn't loose anything at all.

I had the trust in you but it seems that you had taken this to another level and seen it in another light.

Fine. You people have more say than us and just too bad that you people are in a more superior position that you can have that something which we cant own and perhaps we're the more inferior ones as you all love to put it and symbolically giving you jerks the authority to displace us who are being slightly at the 'lower ends'...And worse, we're treated like beggars or some sort, who are incapable of surviving by our own, who are parasites that lived for nothing but to depend on you poeple...TO HELL WITH THAT!

So listen up, I would rather do the wrong stuff than to handle the bloody treatments by you people and YOU PEOPLE SUCK AND ALL OF YOU ARE THE WORST KIND OF RAGS THAT EVEN MY UNDERPANTS SMELLED BETTER THAN YOU!!!

Well, that's all for my ramblings. So my semester break is here and I still have tons of assignments to be completed. And it's already Monday and I'm not even starting one assignment =_='' guess I just gotta kick myself on the back a few times (how is that even possible?? O.o)

Pimples are all popping out for no apparent reasons...and I looked horrible....screw all the hormones...I'd rather have oilier face and more facial hair than having all these little buggers mushroomed all over my face...All my guys friends spent at least 30 bucks a week on their facial regime and I'm not even doing anything other than washing my face with a type of soap 'kononnya' is good for prevention of pimples..bull shit...

I guess getting frustrated and jumpy could be part of the reason besides stress? huh....

Bliss in the morning sunshine

I figured out that I've not been posting up my poetry lately. So I guess it's time while I'm still working on a poem called 'Let the wind hug you'. It should be an interesting one but due to the never ending commitments, I'm sorry that I couldn't post up in time. Nevertheless, I'll try my best to complete it when I'm done with most of my assignments. Meanwhile, I'll treat you guys with this. I'm not sure if I've posted this before, but who cares, as long as you got the feel =P

Have you ever wake up to a morning when everything just seemed blissful and it's as if you living in a whole different dimension where serenity is all you can feel? I just wish that every morning would be like that.

Being tired of the world, even a bird's chirping and the morning sunshine would gain your full appreciation.

If you just listen and feel.

The day awaits

I heard the birds chirping,

As I opened the window.

I felt the gentle breeze caressing my face,

And the clouds racing eastwards.

I gazed at the playground of God,

Of a reflection in the river

With plants that are green and young.

I can’t help but wonder,

What a day that awaits me

As the first ray of sunlight

Emerged from the horizon

And I heard the radio singing,

‘A new day has come…’

Sabah - A place not to be missed if you are a MALAYSIAN

Nothing compared to a relaxing weekend after a whole month of stress and tension. Reluctant as I was at first, I am glad that I made it to Sabah and guess what, the trip was AWESOME! people, need not spend your money on tours and oversea trips, I can assure you that even within Malaysia, you could find world class destinations. Just like Sabah. No one paid me to advertise but I'm truly in love with the state, it's serenity and its coastal beauty had deeply enchanted me. So here are some photos I'd taken along the way and more could be viewed on Facebook. (I couldn't believe I'm updating my account XD). We took off by Malaysia Airlines and unfortunately, most domestic flights are of old planes...so it wasn't that pleasant but at least it was worth the trip.

Here's a scene captured from plane before landing


Had seafood for dinner as Sabah is famous for it and that 'lobster-like' prawns were throat cutting! Rm 200 for two =_='




And this is taken from our hotel room. We stayed in Shangri-la, which could be easily passsed on as a 4-star hotel, contrary to my mom's believe to be only 3-star

One of the streets in Kota Kinabalu

Scenic views from the observatory tower on 'Bukit Bendera'

My little brother and I
My dear family, minus that 'botak' XD well at least he's kind enough to ask if I wanna be in the picture

What I liked most about the sleeping Buddha is the close resemblance to a live human, you might not notice it in the picture but trust me, it's really real when you take a closer look on the spot

Oh, and how was I supposed to forget that we were so lucky to catch the one and only 'floating bookshop' that harbored at the port of Kota Kinabalu. I've been wanting to visit this ship which is 2 years younger than the 'Titanic' for quite awhile and walah! Lucky lucky me! First spotted this when we were crusing along the coastal area at night after our 1st dinner and although I'm not a Christian, I 'm still glad that I was able to step on this decade-old ship. The lady ship is called 'Doulos' and the whole concept of floating bookstore came about by a group of Christians and believe it or not, all the workers on board are actually volunteers! how wonderful is that! I f I'm not mistaken, the next stop would be at Pasir Gudang and this lady only stop for less than a month.

From the stairs of the ship

Inside the ship


Her 'Lady-ship' - Doulos' =D

Not to forget Tanjung Aru. The waves and the wind was truly a breathtaking one! You could actually fall asleep by just letting the wind feather across your body and it's not like those typical breeze but a strong one I would say and it never stopped not even until we left.


Ok, my mom said this fella looked like a gangster =_=' gangsters don't really smile while taking a pic, do they??




This could seemed motionless but if you're there, it's totally different



Ah, and this is the Filipino market and it was fascinating to see how these people are becoming more and more like people here as they could initially sell their products at a rocket high price like RM 69 and then once you bargain, it could drop to RM 20 =_=' but at least, it's something different from what we got here. There's still a sense of locality unlike the Petaling Street back here which is flooded by immigrants...
And yes, the Salted fish market which sells lots of dry food products and even sea-horse! hmm..I've asked them how do we consume the sea horse and they said it's only used for boiling and it's good for asthma patience.




This was an unforgettable spot to me. It's known as 'PortView' by most tourists and there's this row of restaurants, bars and cafes along the whole stretch of extended plane towards the coastal line, so you could imagine that this plane is actually standing on the South China Sea =D


Yeap! That's me with the salted fish! XD haha

Imagine this. Plane standing right beside the ocean + a jar of brewed beer + sea breeze = Heavenly indulgence XD



You see, I was at a point doubting that was I even in Malaysia? Looking on would be a whole bunch of Ang Mohs drinking away their beers and enjoying the evening scene and honestly, it's exactly the same as being at the coastal plane of the Mediterranean.



Simply splendid.

something random

Now I'm really experiencing the times when you're so occupied and busy until something you once remembered so clearly or ought to remember that the event is gonna happen the next day just slipped out of your mind...That's real craziness man...I'm just so caught up with endless commitments until I've forgotten that I'll be leaving for Sabah in a few moments XD uni life people, gotta get use to it...

Gosh...my parents were out and I'm blogging at 1 a.m...mom's sure gonna slaughter me nice and clean if she gets to know..hehe...

I've nothing much to say here, in fact, I don't even know where to start since the last time I've blogged. Assignments, presentations, due dates...all cramped into 1...just completed the an Interlearn for Psychology Research, Design and Analysis and I'm so sleepy now...

You know what, I'll probably blog bout more soon when I come back from Sabah and stay tunned for more pictures...haha

So ciao people! I'll see u guys soon!

I smile as I hope

There will always be a rainbow after the rain, it's just the matter of light and dampness.


Back then, I'm sure you readers noticed that I used to blog about how my life sucked and as if the whole world is gonna end sort of posts. Well, funny they say time can do anything to you without telling you when and why. I guess this is what we're living for huh? as Lord Buddha said, live in the present, think nothing of the past or the future, enjoy the mist of the morning without worrying the sun will dry away the very last drop of it. Haha, as profound as it sounded, there's nothing bombastic in it, just some sprinkle of stardust with a glittering shine that'll brighten up the dark corner of your soul =)

Not that my life is a bed of roses for now nor I'm feeling joyous...I'm living in a dimension that I'm trying my level best to live in contentment...

And I'm still trying not to think bout the past and the future...although it'll form a smile while I reminisce about the blissful memories.

Here's a poem called 'I smile as I hope' Hopefully it'll bring a smile as you read =)

(I smile as I hope)

I hope,
Therefore
It comes to me.
Like an invisible smile
Forming the curve on my face.

I have a dream.
And that smile
Will fade into stardust
Of Aurorean love,
Shining my way to hope again.

When life hits you

Hello there! I'm back again, stealing some of my assignment time for blogging xD Been up with a flu and a slight cough since 2 days ago..=( nearly developed a fever last week but thankful my immune system is still running quite well because back then I used to be like sick cat every now and then when flu or coughs hit me haha...my friends were like 'it's not H1N1 rite?' yeah right.. =_='

So now that I'm already in week 4 of the semester, as usual, assignments are piling up and it seems that there's no end to the reading lists and not to forget the 6 books that I've borrowed from the library for reference purpose...I felt like I'm already drowning in the sea of books...well at least I was drilled by Ms. Grace back then to read up on all the literature books back in college and thus far, I'm really glad and thankful that I could still handle it =D though drowning, I'm enjoying the sea water as well xD (what nonsense..)

About the assignments, since this is the very 1st time that I've actually approached such question and as you can read in my previous post I was kinda stressed up..hehehe(typical me xD) and hyper-ventilating as Clare used to put =P, I'm finally done with that essay and surprisingly, Mr. Gilmore said that I was right on track and he said it was impressive as I'm only a 1st year student when I approached him to show him my draft =) Felt so 'victorious' *glorious music playing...* the next thing I know, I'm popped out of a bubble XD Of course I wouldn't know how it'll turn out since I've not submitted up the text proper..so...I really hoped that I could get a credit at the very least and better still, a distinction band. More essays to come and boy I really miss those fun times in literature and law class where genuine laughters and warmth is greatly felt...not to forget pieces after pieces of writing and comparing between novels...feeling rather nostalgic now...

Nevertheless, I've been admitted to this international institution where this will be the stepping stone for me to achieve that dream which I've always longed to and it would continue to be a never-ending process of learning, experiencing and living the scholar's life for the next 3 years or perhaps 4 years (if I'm lucky). Although it's not a bed of roses, this experience had certainly set my grip firmer and anchored the strength in me to keep on pushing.

Deep down, I've came to a realization that He will reward me back as much as I've put in during this whole journey whether directly or indirectly, whether soon enough or near future, it is just the matter of time and perseverance.

B-L-O-O-D-Y H-E-L-L

ARRGHHH!!!!!! BLOODY @#$%^%!$^*tt@#$!@

It is either I complete the darn bloody assignments or I'll go burn the Australian Uni >:(
What sort of bloody questions you're asking?

You see? What stress can do to you?

I probably need a good night sleep but HOW ON THE BLOODY EARTH YOU WANT ME TO FINISH READING TONS OF MATERIALS IN JUST 2 DAYS? BE REASONABLE LAR

see how I'm gonna suffer bcoz of y'all...screw you people in class...bloody hell...

Where are all the 'real' people?

First things first, I'm in no surprise that humans are indeed thickly masked by layers and layers of fabric, be it something bad or something one might feel ashamed to disclose, that is fine with me and I don't care whether one hides them intentionally or choose to expose EVERYTHING beneath that shiny mask, I seriously don't care and wouldn't care about it. BUT, something did taken me aback when the really unexpected hit me, well I guess you could say I'm bullshitting but seriously, no matter how much I say those are none of my business, when something unexpected as I said being thrust to your face, you just have to acknowledge it and to me, it just shaken me a bit...well, one musn't judge a book by its cover. I didn't wanna make it so direct as I'm afraid that I might offend someone...Sometimes I'm wondering whether is't me, myself and only me who's sight hasn't been exposed to the real world or am I having a right judgement?

Yet again, life's unexpectedness.

Anyway, haven't got the time to blog recently...yea yea, I hate it but I have to say the usual cliches that my assignments and reading materials are piling up bla bla bla...it's true anyway...my friends were like, 'wa y u start studyin so fast??' I was thinking to myself, 'huh?! so fast? it's already the 3rd week of the semester and our assignments due dates are getting closer, don't you people care bout ur studies?' ok, maybe I'm just plain paranoid, but hey, I got in to Monash not for the parties or just for the sake of expanding my social sphere but I'm here to get that piece of cert with an Honours...I'm blabbing again, I know it's kinda impossible but still, I'm taking my 3 years seriously and you know how much I took to get in to Monash?

Fine, just call me a cracked nut.

Anyway, attended a Arts Transition Programme last Saturday and we did had fun! =D my teams went 1st for 'Book-Hunt' xD and I won a comic book! haha Nothing much to update recently except that due dates are coming soon and I'm just sooooo worried bout that, I can't even start a single sentence for my essays which means I'm so screwed...well just hope for the best after I've seen some lecturers to clarify my doubts.

Had lunch with Jamie and Chin San in Sunway Pyramid and it was also the very 1st time I've ever been there! =_=' all thanks to my dad who just refused to get there BECAUSE OF THE JAM which in my opinion will not occur in the morning =_='

Oh by the way, thank you soo much for the lunch Jamie! =D I really appreciate it! Will get you something nice for your birthday yea!

And seriously, ISA should be demolished or at the very least, go through a REFORM for God's sake! The purpose of ISA is being misunderstood and please people, it's not like a charge or a rotten egg that you could just throw it at anyone...grow up =_=' so, Anti-ISA protesters caught and arrested under ISA...ironic...it's just a PROTEST for demolishing ISA, doesn't mean that we're raising RACIAL issues =_=' c'mon...even the Malays were protesting...what you have to say?...oh, ISA is something for the gov to CONTROL or SILENCE racial issues...and going against ISA means something different to the pro ISA-ers? Hmmm...dare not say too much after I pulak kena tangkap ISA?! =p

And I really missed the life back in college...=( those small little classes that we had and we basically know everybody in the cohort which is very unlikely to happen in Uni...wish I could just turn back time...Back then, almost everybody was warm and sincere, now, everyone seemed so cold and distant...

Those good-o-times...

(As it goes by…)

Sunrise
Sundown
I look in your eyes
I sometimes frown…

Daylight
Twilight
Living in a single phase of time,
Have we ever looked back?
Have we become loyal slaves to time?
Chasing nothing…
But time…time…time…

Has it really been decades?
Whereby flowers had stopped blooming
And my age is catching…

It seemed so far behind
When flowers of crisp-cross decorated my life,
With childish games and fantasies…

Too fast…
Too fast…