Friday, October 30, 2009

Raining of thoughts...

Somehow, the weather actually stands a huge part of the significant representation of our mood, or should I say feelings?

Was raining heavily right after I took my first finals examination yesterday - Psychology. I wonder if it was just a mere coincident or perhaps an omen hinting me the worst was yet to come, or telling me how unprepared and how deserving I was for feeling bad about the exam. And yes, I did not have a casual and cheerful thought despite the completion of a much anticipated paper. Of course I wouldn't say that I'd gave my all but I dare say that I've tried my best. Much more than before. So, a regular downpour or a sign?

I wasn't too happy about it while I was sitting there in the library, facing the open compound while trying to read up some articles for next week's International Studies when the sky was so dark and out of a sudden, it rained like there was no tomorrow. As I was trying to concentrate, a stream of words just came into my mind...after a long time, the fountain of poesy came alive and halfway constructing a poem, Fatin came along and we just went for a tea at the cafeteria which offered no 'happy food' according to Fatin, my lovely course mate XD

And today, Danny, a good buddy of mine came over, supposedly to study, but ended up chit-chatting for the whole afternoon while having lunch and apparently his legs were itching too as for mine XD so we decided go for a jog later on as I really need one since my belly is becoming more prominent (haha..) In fact the weather was kinda 'moody' I'd say xD but I sorta guess that it wouldn't rain but Danny insisted that it will...and we had a bet...

Why the heck am I sounding more and more monotonous? It's like I'm writing a lap report....

Anyway, back to the topic...so we had bet and that sneaky fella got me promised to post up my after-jog photos on Facebook which I was so reluctant to do so...'dahlah aku tak photogenic, then peluh kuat pulak...' sigh~ oh by the way the photos are on fb...and plz don't check it out if necessary xD

While we were almost reaching the other side of the park, we had to make a detour as it was already drizzling and I thought that we could just run home in time before the rain got heavier but lady luck wasn't on our side and certainly no more ON MY SIDE! and that's when I lose my bet..yay~ =_='' it was already quite heavy when we tried to run into the nearest porch available and thankfully there was still room available for the 2 of us but my goodness, the wind was so heavy until it further drenched our clothes....

It was kinda awkward as we were sweating and panting like mad dogs and imagine this: *when we ran in, everybody just stoned and roll their big eyes over us and when we turn back, everybody resumed to their conversations...we were like...=_='*

Seriously, what's so 'dramatic' about us? Tak pernah tengok orang putih ke? atau tak pernah tengok orang berpeluh?

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But in a way it's kinda funny as well judging by their expressions and looks..haha

We were literally stuck for almost an hour and at point we peculiarly ran out of conversation and this was when I went into a deep thought while watching the downpour. The rain almost, always has an effect on me when I'm drifted off into a sea thoughts...

I was imagining that if the place where we were standing was a boat, or a ship and the only difference was this boat was immobile, and I was thinking as we were running into that little 'hut', it just overwhelmed me that this could be a safe haven for us and I felt sheltered and thankful that there's still a place for me before being carried away by the 'sea current'. As the wind got stronger and so did the millions of water droplets. That moment in time, it was as if the forces of nature was gonna tear our boat apart and when I felt the chilly wind accompanied by the rain hitting on my back and my shoulders, I even saw some children running into their parents' arms and tugging their little heads into the warmth of their parents after hearing a load roar of the thunder, flashed with Zeus' thunder bolt. The rain got heavier and heavier by the second, and feelings of helplessness and vulnerability just kicked in and I wonder how long would we still be trapped here? and at the same time I was also wondering if I'd get sick since I was sweating so badly when the wind was howling away and freezing my body to death...worst still, I was wearing a thin material which was furthermore sleeveless...*shivers* I could not bring myself to reality until Danny nudge me by my tummy and realized that the rain had subsided...how long I've been in a 'trance', I seriously couldn't tell. One thing for sure was that I felt slightly cheerful than before as the worst turmoil had passed us by and what was left was the last drops from the clouds. Thinking that we might be able to leave soon, yet again, I was thrilled by a sense of gladness and gratitude that the boat could finally sail on a calmer sea and we'd all be reaching the land and leaving the sea soon. How great was that. I've tried to relate this to Danny, but I guess we're just too tired and distracted to listen to each other, so I've decided to blog it out.

Yes, the rain somehow made me came out with all sorts of funny imaginations (which most people would relate to) but as for me, it's like a life experience.

We begin our journey,
we met obstacles along the way,
we felt that life just doesn't treat us kind,
but if we're strong enough to persevere, to endure it all,
and not make stupid decisions like jumping into the sea and tried to swim, in our case, tried running home under the rain and got sick,
troubles will eventually vanish, and as I've blogged before,
there would always be a rainbow after a wash,
and off we go again, continuing our journey
under a bright sunny sky,
till we reach our desired destinations.

Yeap! that would be all for now and before my readers got sleepy enough after reading this post, here it is, a more 'decent' photo of me (though not for the actions xD), at least I'm 'dried' at last..haha

I was actually yelling at Danny to stop taking my picture and who knows he handled the camera so well until he caught me in this 'bitchy' pose XD

Till then and I'll post up a poem tomorrow IF I could complete it by tonight =D

Have a nice evening guys!

1 comment:

*~aLeXiS~* said...

hmm.. I'm guessing it's probably the environment.. for one, Malaysia is so hot and humid... I didn't really realize that till I came to the States. The air is so cooling, so dry and yet so windy. hahas. Not good for the little brats. XD