Thursday, October 23, 2008

Finally...I'm back with words...haha

Yeeloow people!!! ha-ha...Haven't been updating my blog for quite some time. Yeah thanks to all the law tests that is starting to suck the joy out of it...gosh I just had one today and most of us basically stared blankly at the question paper for a good 10 minutes before we started scribbling some unrelated nonsense ha-ha...So... we did Keats today during our lit class and it was an interesting lesson as Ms. Grace wrote out the major themes of his poems and asked us to relate the poems to the themes which nearly drove Alex crazy as we spot the poems like no one Else's business, where else he was scratching his head trying to figure out which one haha! and they're not many poems left since most of them had been convenientlyspotted by us...heeheehee xD

Can't believe next Wednesday is already our trials and guess what? I haven't even touch on Maths which is by far the worst subject for me. Wonder how would I even maintain a passing grade for my Mechanics 1...ugghh...Mrs. Sharma, our Bio lecturer just said that the Aussies are so proud of people taking Maths until they are capable of saying that nothing is more important than Maths and with Maths, you need nothing more... =_=' one word, PATHETIC!!! but anyway, good for you guys like Wai Lun who has been taking Maths and God knows what other branches of Maths is he taking and he's going to Aussie soon, so you'll be on top of the world. Ha-ha!

I used to wish that time was a flowing stream of river.
Now, I wished for time as a stagnant pool of water. How ironic.

That drove me to come up with this latest poem of mine called, Let it be time, for it is time. xD
Oh by the way, I have already written 64 poems. =D and I'm so very glad. It may just be words, but at least I do have something out of the extraordinary =)

(Let it be time, for it is time)

Let me dissolve in time,
For it is too short a life.

Let me be grounded in a crystal ball,
For I will be in goodness’s memory forevermore.

Let me a sculpture,
For I can witness the aging of present to history.

Let me be an urn, buried in legend,
For old is gold.

Let me be a painting,
For a moment captured be forever framed.

Let me be written into poesy,
For words will be eternally remained.

Let me be one with You,
For You is where I begun in time.

Friday, October 17, 2008

Tagged by Ms. Angeline...

ALOHA people! now I cant believe I've actually asked someone to tag me...hahaha coz I think I kinda fancy this tag where you use the songs in the player to answer them and mainly because I have lots of MARIAH songs in my player (DUH...) XD so I asked for it..hehe...here it goes.

The Golden Rules:
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn't make sense.
4. With the answers, give your own comments on how they relate to the questions.
5 . Tag at least 5 people.

1. How are you feeling today?
-One love by BLUE
Feeling loved? =D

2. If someone says, “Is this okay?” You say?
-Greatest gift of all by Jim Brickman and Michelle Wright
If i were to receive anything as a present, I'll say this is definitely the greatest gift of all!

3. What do you like in a guy/girl?
-Cant fight the moonlight by LeAnn Rimes
A fighter, but a moonlight melody at heart (deep huh??) XD

4. Will you get far in life?
-God bless the broken road by Rascal Flats
How appropriate!! A journey of life that's determined by HIM...Lord bless me =)

5. What do you think about very often?
-It's like that by Mariah Carey
ehh...like that lor...hahaha

6. What is 2 + 2?
-All that I need by Boyzone
4 is not everything I need leh...haha

7. What's your best friend's theme song?
-Mine again by Mariah Carey
hmm....I doubt it coz it seems MC has something against him...muahaha

8. What is the story of your life?
-Anytime you need a friend by Mariah Carey!
My story will not be complete without my buddies =D

9. What is/was your high school like?
-Time to say goodbye by Sarah Brightman and Andrea Bocelli
I hate to goodbye to my high school life...thats how I would describe

10. What is your motto?
-The greatest love of all by Whitney Houston
Inspired by LOVE and guided by knowledge =)

11. What’s the best thing about your friends?
-Open arm by Mariah Carey
Their open arms of course =D

12. What do you think of the person you like?
-I'll never break your heart by Backstreet Boys
heehee...

13. What do you want to be when you grow up?
-Can't let go by Mariah Carey
I can't let go of MONEY!!! so I wanna be a TRILLIONAIR!!! hahahaha

14. What do you think of when you see the person you like?
-Butterfly kisses by Bob Carlisle
hmm....the kisses?! OMG... =_='

15. Describe your grandparents.
-One moment in time by Whitney Houston
I've lost both my grandfathers and my my grandmothers are living in this wonderful moment

16. How's your life going?
-Baby can I hold you by Boyzone
=_=' can I hold you back Mr. Time?

17. What is your biggest fear?
-Without you by Mariah Carey
Living without you mummy. =D

18. What will be played at your funeral?
-As long as you love me by Backstreet Boys
yeah...as long as you guys love me.. =)

19. What is your hobby/interest?
-Because we believe by Andrea Bocelli
=_=' can't think of anything...

20. Will you have a happy life?
-Flying without wings by Westlife
The song explains it =)

21. What do your friends really think of you?
-Let the music heal your soul by Bravo all stars
hmm...soothing comforter? XD

22. Do people secretly lust after you?
-I stay in love by Mariah Carey
I'll say STAY IN LOVE PEOPLE!

23. How can you make yourself happy?
-Bringing on the heartbreak by Mariah Carey
=_=' never know that'll make me happy...

24. Will you ever have children?
-Everyday I love you by Boyzone
mom says she wants a DOZEN! =_='

25. What song would you strip to?
-How do you want me to love you by 911
=_='

26. What does your mom think of you?
-I will remember you by Sarah McLachian
She'll remember me as a good son xD

27. What do you think of your parents?
-After tonight by Mariah Carey
not just tonight, they're forever great, day and night

28. What is your deep, dark secret?
-At the beginning OST of Anatasia
at the beginning I was...(not to be revealed) ;-P

29. What is your enemy's theme song?
-All that you want by Gary Barlow
All that it takes to accept me as your friend

30. What will you dance to at your wedding?
-That's the way it is by Celine Dion
Celine Dion?! haha

HAHA..that's about it...so I'll tag...
-WENG CHUNG
-CLARISSA
-JIAN FUNG
-KELVIN
-ALITHEA

Have fun guys! =D

Friday, October 10, 2008

A thousand words but a silent void...

Feelings. What a word. So much to say, so much to tell. Yet, it fails me.

My journey of life, certainly is a mountain of hills and valleys, a chapter of endless tales and a journey of roller-coaster ride.

At times, words just don't seemed to flow in our minds and feelings, yes, I mean feelings always got the better of you. I always ponder upon events that coincide my life and somehow, for certain reasons, I am unable to describe how I feel or who am I deep down in me, although this may sound like an 'ordinary emotional poet like KEATS' whom I never intended to be. Still, not a syllable I can say nor tell although at a certain point, I have been through so much that I felt I could write a book, after a while, gone are the thousand words, gone are the voices...Be it truth, be it lies, all burried in the deepest soil that no one can reach, and there comes a fountain of the untold and unheard.

(A thousand of a thousand)

A book with a thousand words,
Seemed like a never ending fountain,
That goes on forever-and ever-and ever.

My mind with a thousand emotions,
Feels like a sea of human faces,
Passing me by with questions unanswered.

The sky with a thousand stars,
Glint and shine like a goddess’ gem.
Decorated heaven with glows of the ancient guardian.

My spirit with a thousand sobs,
Nothing heals better than an erased memory,
That clings on to the core deep down in me.

The stream with a thousand glitter,
Turned into a river frozen with the untold,
Iced-up with the unheard.

Sunday, October 5, 2008

tagged by Weng Chung...

OMG...i cant believe i'm doin this in the middle of 2 am...great..no thanks to weng chung...anyway...i just wanna tag...err...CLARISSA, ERIC and MS. ANGELONTHELINE =D...so guys...u're tagged!!!hahaha..and guess what, this is the 1st time being tagged and the 1st time i'm tagging other people...

01. What have you been doing recently?
lots of internet and i've been studyin for my trials...sobs...

02. Do you ever turn your cell phone off?
yup, at night when i'm asleep..infrared waves bad for us lar..haha

03. What happened at 10.00am today?
-was having my breakfast at 6 happiness restaurant-having dim sum =D

04. When did you last cry?
-no idea xD

05. Believe in fate/destiny?
-definitely!! read my poems and u'll know =D

06. What do you want in your life right now?
hmm, MONEY!!! haha well health, family members being together and A's for my exams =)

07. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains, or just put up your hood?
-umbrella, ella, ella, eh, eh... =_='

08. What’s your favourite thing to have on your bed?
-my boaster =D

09. What bottom are you wearing now?
-NOTHING!!! 0.O''' hahaha shorts la...

10. What’s the nicest text in your inbox say?
-hmm some chinese text sent by Kin Yang the day before high school graduation

11. Do you tend to make a relationship complicated?
-never did, life shouldn't be complicated =D

12. Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone?
-NO!!!

13. What was the last movie you caught?
-Band of Brothers on dvd...awsome movie!!

14. What are you proud of?
-myself i gueesed? hahaha, my height and my voice i guess???muahaha (perasan betul)

15. What does the oldest message in your inbox says?
-ai yor...i have messages dated back to 2005 la..haha it's bout a silly joke..haha

16. What was the last song you sang out loud?
-the american national anthem?! MUAHAHAHA not that i feel in love with the people...haha

17. Do you have any nicknames?
-not that i know....maybe choon choon called by Stefanie?? =.=' haha

18. What does your last received text message say?
-y u wanna know? heeheehee

19. What time did you go to bed last night?
-11.57 pm?

20. Are you currently happy?
-not really...hard to describe

21. Who gives you best advice?
-MOM!!!

22. Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
-i would love to do that =D but i do like to eat the cream 1st frm my favorite JUMBO PUFF bought frm KLCC..haha

23. Who did you talk on phone last night?
-MOM?

24. Is anything bugging you right now?
-yea...my trials and

25. What/who was the last thing/person to make you laugh?
-mom wacking dad! hahaha thats hilarious

26. Do you wear toe socks?
-what on earth are those???

27. Who was the last person you missed a call from?
-tak tau lar..haha

28. Have you ever had your heartbroken?
-definitely duh...

29. What annoys you most in a person?
-i hate fakers and those who are blind towards other people's feelings

30. Do you have a crush on anyone?
-yea...

31. Have you ever done cocaine?
-even i were to die also i wont do it

32. What is the colour of your room?
-white =_='''

33. Would you kill someone you hate for a billion dollar?
- why would i? i'm a BUDDHIST!!! =D no one can do bad in my blog since i put up such holy pic =)

34. Do you believe in the saying of : talk is cheap?
-NO! it costs u ur life if u say something wrong

35. Who was the last person to lie in your bed?
-my bro =.=

36. Who was the last person to hug you?
-mom =)

37. Did anyone see the last person you kissed?
-i never kissed anybody

38. Do you have a life?
-what?! what kind of question is this?!!

39. Have you ever think someone died, when they really didnt die?
- =_='

40. What is the reason behind your profile song?
-i just loved it and i wanna put that as my wedding theme song...hahaha

41. Who was the last person you saw in your dream?
-forgotten...

42. Last time you smiled?
-when answering question 40 =DD

43. Have you changed this year?
-hmm...i think so...physically and mentally

44. What are you listening right now?
-nothing

45. Are you talking to someone when you doing this?
-no...

46. Do you walk with your eyes open or closed?
-another f****ing question...haha

47. Is there a quote you live by?
-inspired by love and guided by knowledge

48. Do you want someone you cannot have?
-absolutely, that will be MARIAH CAREY!!! =D she's my ultimate fav singer...

49. Have you ever played an instrument?
-yes, a piano...and my only isntrument now to me is my voice =D

50. What was the worst idea you’ve had in this week?
-to not to study...

51. What are you doing last night at 11pm?
-half way through my M'sian Studies assignment...=_=' wat a 'fabulous' sub...

52. Are you happy with your love life right now?
-i'm not taken and i'm available ;-P

53. What song best describe your love life?
-i'm not in love lor...

54. Does the person know that you like him/her?
-not to be told...

55. Who always make you laugh?
-mom, friends...

56. Do you speak other language other than English?
-oh yes of course...mandarin, malay, hokkien, canto

57. Favourite website(s)?
-youtube and Yahoo...haha

58. What’s your middle name?
-Choon
59. What are you doing tomorrow?
-no idea, breakfast, then maybe will go to shop for a pair of new shoes and then back home, reading..

60. What do you think you are like?
-A HUMAN...
61. Who will you choose to die with?
-my soul...

62. Where have you been today?
-Jusco Wangsa Maju

63. What game do you play often?
-i seldom play games...UNO on msn i guess

64. Who are you missing right now?
-my old self...

65. If you have to choose between friend and love, who will you choose?
-friend

66. What are you doing right now?
- another question like that...i'm gonna swear =.=

67. Which primary school are you from?
-i'm frm 4 primary schools xD

68. Name 3 colours that you like?
-white, navy blue, black

69. What emotion you like to show?
-calm and steady

70. What is your life to you?
-everything, a period of time where i could live my desired dreams

71. If you have something troubling you, what will you do?
-sleep it off and most probably pen a poem..what else can i do?

72. Who did you last chat in msn today?
-Eric, Weng Chung, Kheng Hong

73. Who do you admire most?
-Mariah Carey and my MOM

74. Which month are you born in?
-April

75. How are you feeling right now?
-pathetically tired...

76. What is the time now?
-1.45 a.m

77. What kind of person do u think the one who tagged you is?
-funny, intelligent, unexpected

78.What colour did you use to dye hair?
-no dye plz...

79. Why are you doing this test?
-just to please sumone... =.=

80. What do you do when you’re moody?
-sleep it off as i say...a poem will help...listen to some Mariah Carey

81. At which age you wish to get married?
-whenever after i'm successful

82. Who is more important to you?
-mom and brother

83. If today is the last day of your life, what will you do?
-write the last poem and spent the last moments with my family.

84. Who is the person you trust the most?
-mom of course

85. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after a rain?
-yes i do. =)

86. If you have a dream come true, what would it be?
-seeing Mariah Carey face to face

87. What is your goal for this year?
- to get at at least 1 A for my trials...

88. Do you believe in eternity love?
-yes...but its hard to find nowadays...

89. What feeling do you love most?
-happiness and serenity

90. Do you really think its Global Warming now?
-duh...

91.What feeling do you hate the most?
-fright and disappointment and embarrassment

92. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
-yes...for always

93. Do you believe in God?
-i believe in Gods and Buddha

94. Who cares for you most?
-mom =D

95. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
-being able to take care of bro and mom...for now, getting into a good U and scoring grades

96. What will you bring when you fight?
- i dont fight...

97. What have you done regretted doing in your whole life?
-bullying Chu Wen, my primary 4 classmate, and i just loose contact with her...

98. What would you feel if no one no longer cares for you?
-i'll accept it as my fate...

99. What if your boyfriend/girlfriend two-timed you?
-wtf...

100. HOW DO U FEEL NOW?
-you tell me... =_='''

Friday, October 3, 2008

Of Brothers and Bonds

Have you ever wonder how life would be like when we are still at war in this very second? Or for the guys, have you ever thought of how does it feel if you were to become a soldier and the country lies in the hands of yours? I did.

I was overwhelmed by feelings after watching 'Band of Brothers' by Steven Spielberg and Tom Hanks and once again, I was sharing the same minds of the 'brothers' in that movie as if I was there, witnessing the whole moment all these while.
'Beyond the wounded and killed, every men in Bastogne suffered. Men unhit by shrapnel or bullets were nevertheless casualties.'
Stephen E. Ambrose


That quotation explains my feelings at the very moment. I'm certain that this was also felt by all the ex-soldiers who had helplessly watched and seen their pals got hit in the midst of a fiery war.
And so... the story goes on. And I am really thankful to Lord that I was not born into the century of agony and death, instead, I was sent to a time where I'm able to sit in front of my computer comfortably with the air conditioner on. In fact, ever since I watched 'Pearl Harbor' starring Josh Hartnett and 'Empire of the sun' starring Christian Bale, I started to fancy movies with the settings of the post-1900 and movies regarding the Second World War. Not because of the violence inflicted of course, but the values hailed from these kind of movies. The bondage of 'war-buddies' and brotherhood, which has almost, always, gives a sense of awe to me. Well of course I'm not just referring to the American soldiers in particular, but to all soldiers and those true warriors out there who had fought for their countries and been through the 'hell on earth',

I salute you with my deepest respect. And here I dedicate a beautiful medley by Mariah Carey. It's actually a cross-over between 2 songs called Never too far and Hero. Listen to the song and here are the lyrics. Enjoy and be one with the song =D



You're with me
Till the bitter end
What we had transcends
This experience
Too painful to
Talk about
So I'll hold it in
Til my heart can mend
And be brave enough to love again
A place in time
Still belongs to us
Stays preserved in my mind
In the memories there is solace
Oh,
Never too far away
I won't let time erase
One bit of yesterday
Cause I have learned that
Nobody can take your place
Though we can never be
I'll keep you close to me always remember
Love

When you feel like hope is gone,
Look inside you and be strong,
And you'll finally see the truth,
that a hero lies in you.
Lord knows, dreams are hard to follow
But don't let anyone, tear them away.
Hold on, there will be tomorrow.
In time, you'll find the way
And then a hero comes along, with the strength to carry on,
And you cast your fears aside, and you know you can survive.
So when you feel like hope is gone,
Look inside you and be strong,
And you'll finally see the truth, that a hero lies in you.
That a hero lies in you
Nobody can take your place
You're never too far

Never too far away, the battle, the tears, the blood, the joy, the victory will always lie deep within a warrior's book of life, and no matter what, he and the rest of the 'brothers' will always stay connected in each other's heart where a true hero lies within. ;-)


God bless.