(Poesy of silence)
A wilting blossom,
A dying soul.
A gloomy day,
A candle-less life.
A raining afternoon,
A sobbing tale.
A starless night,
A void’s emptiness.
A song to sing,
A heart to be broken.
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
Monday, November 24, 2008
A mended heart, with broken pieces...
You will never know that separation can actually tear your heart into a million pieces. The pain will eventually find its way to the deepest darkness and implants itself till you can never get out of the clinging of that nasty being.
For 5 years now, it suddenly dawned on me, where once had long became then, where the air of sadness gushed in and the fall of loneliness kicked in...
(Once, then.)
Once again,
A mended heart is broken.
The air of remorse,
Gushing across my sanity,
The fall of loneliness.
With a somber tune,
I hummed a song.
For 5 years now, it suddenly dawned on me, where once had long became then, where the air of sadness gushed in and the fall of loneliness kicked in...
(Once, then.)
Once again,
A mended heart is broken.
The air of remorse,
Gushing across my sanity,
The fall of loneliness.
With a somber tune,
I hummed a song.
Monday, November 10, 2008
RandoM Rushes...
'Heard melodies are sweet, but those unheard are sweeter'
~John Keats from Ode to a Grecian Urn
Talking about life now may seem a little bit too early. But trust me, life will get to you. Soon.
Hello people! Seriously, I have totally no idea on what to post about today. As mentioned before, words can fill your mind in a second but within the next, everything gone with the winds. Anyway, I had just randomly picked a line from Keats - my 'favorite' poet to just...err..you know, to spark some inspirations out of me..ha-ha... Just got back all my papers recently, failed Math, passed Bio but didn't do too well, PASSED LAW!!!!!! OMG!! this is the best that could ever happened to my entire college life!!! and got a B+ for Literature and guess what? I just couldn't believe that I would still be able to obtain the higest overall grade in class despite my terrible individual grades...haha at least it's something lar...although it's just like a few marks away from the ever-intelligent, English-power-house Clarissa...xD hahaha! but seriously she beat me flat in law whereby she had scored the higest in class beating the 'former best-scorer' Mei Xin aahhahah!! Nevertheless, I'm still glad that we actually passed law coz everyone was so terrified by this subject...
So...I guess thats for now and I'll be back with more photos next time when I blog...gosh..my eyes can barely stay open now...(yawns~~) so long and have a good night!
~John Keats from Ode to a Grecian Urn
Talking about life now may seem a little bit too early. But trust me, life will get to you. Soon.
Hello people! Seriously, I have totally no idea on what to post about today. As mentioned before, words can fill your mind in a second but within the next, everything gone with the winds. Anyway, I had just randomly picked a line from Keats - my 'favorite' poet to just...err..you know, to spark some inspirations out of me..ha-ha... Just got back all my papers recently, failed Math, passed Bio but didn't do too well, PASSED LAW!!!!!! OMG!! this is the best that could ever happened to my entire college life!!! and got a B+ for Literature and guess what? I just couldn't believe that I would still be able to obtain the higest overall grade in class despite my terrible individual grades...haha at least it's something lar...although it's just like a few marks away from the ever-intelligent, English-power-house Clarissa...xD hahaha! but seriously she beat me flat in law whereby she had scored the higest in class beating the 'former best-scorer' Mei Xin aahhahah!! Nevertheless, I'm still glad that we actually passed law coz everyone was so terrified by this subject...
So...I guess thats for now and I'll be back with more photos next time when I blog...gosh..my eyes can barely stay open now...(yawns~~) so long and have a good night!
Saturday, November 8, 2008
Behind the shadow of fear...
*Sigh~* I'm scared. I'm feeling real scared. What has become of me? I...I just...can't seem to shake off the deepest fears in me... Not that I'm scared that I will not wake up tomorrow, but, it's just...something...that I wasn't able to clear off eversince...Ahh...someone just please fill me with words...
There are time when fear creeps into you and slowly, it infects each and every corner of your heart and somehow, you'll be able to survive but what is behind it, it's just unbearable...when I see other people, living their lives like there's no tomorrow...I actually envied them...perhaps, it might be a mistake for me to be born into this dimension, perhaps, this is my punishment from my past life, perhaps, this is just what I deserve, perhaps...
I know I shouldn't have talked bout this in the 1st place as what faced by other people will not even be a fragment compared to mine. But, I really hope that you guys understand and don't judge me too hard for who I am...no worries guys, I'll be instantly ok when I et up tomrrow. I just gotta sleep it off and that's the best way for keeping me 'alive'...hahaha...
Deep down, I really wished to reach out for that something.
(Behind a shadow)
The rain,
Just like the sour tears of my shadow.
Once again,
A spell is cast on me,
My shadow,
The figure in the dark,
The invisible in the light,
Follows me a thousand miles.
Never seen heaven,
Never heard of the angels.
I see the rain,
I see the clouds,
I see not the gentle soul behind the shadow.
Weeping like a lost child,
Sorrow’s sadness, settles through,
Deep, deep in the shadow of the dark.
Behind it,
A bleeding butterfly.
There are time when fear creeps into you and slowly, it infects each and every corner of your heart and somehow, you'll be able to survive but what is behind it, it's just unbearable...when I see other people, living their lives like there's no tomorrow...I actually envied them...perhaps, it might be a mistake for me to be born into this dimension, perhaps, this is my punishment from my past life, perhaps, this is just what I deserve, perhaps...
I know I shouldn't have talked bout this in the 1st place as what faced by other people will not even be a fragment compared to mine. But, I really hope that you guys understand and don't judge me too hard for who I am...no worries guys, I'll be instantly ok when I et up tomrrow. I just gotta sleep it off and that's the best way for keeping me 'alive'...hahaha...
Deep down, I really wished to reach out for that something.
(Behind a shadow)
The rain,
Just like the sour tears of my shadow.
Once again,
A spell is cast on me,
My shadow,
The figure in the dark,
The invisible in the light,
Follows me a thousand miles.
Never seen heaven,
Never heard of the angels.
I see the rain,
I see the clouds,
I see not the gentle soul behind the shadow.
Weeping like a lost child,
Sorrow’s sadness, settles through,
Deep, deep in the shadow of the dark.
Behind it,
A bleeding butterfly.
Friday, November 7, 2008
Heart of the relieved, heart of the decieved
Great. I FAILED my Math. Isn't that the proudest thing that a Chinese guy can ever declare? Yeah. I guessed so. Many people had told me that oh c'mon! You're a chinese and Math is basically in your blood! And plus, you're a guy for God's sake! Yeah right.
I kinda expected it, but I still feel the pinch deep down. Never mind the trials, screw it. Easy to say. Hard to let go. Just a trial. Yeah, sooner or later it would be the real Edexcel exam. Funny huh people like me actually FAIL Math. I know everyone is saying oh please Choon Hui, Math is like the EASIEST thing you could possibly find in the world! Do more exercises...blah... I know that I've said this for the thousand times that I shouldn't compare, but... reality is all around us. No matter how hard you try to ignore the truth, the truth is, my Math still sucked. Like Hell.
Maybe Math is not my thing, I admit. Could it be a lie? An excuse to escape from all the injections of pain? Is that just an excuse to make me feel better? A big fat lie or a truth? What are lies and what can be considered as truth? Aren't we living on lies? what are the truths behind? We tell lies to make people feel better, we even tell lies to the children whereby we always ask them not to tell lies. What an irony.
Some people doesn't respond well to the 'after-effects' of lies. But I certainly do.
(A soul's prison)
Ah!
The guilty twist,
Churning my heart like a windmill gone wild!
The manipulated truth!
Stupid me! Foolish me!
Of how pathetically minded am I…
Sorry?
If only Lord forgives me…
I’ve summoned the demon to me,
I’ve awakened the devil from its grave,
I’ve spilled out the evil out of me…
Lead them to damnation!
Lead them to the pile of flaming flames!
Leave me alone!
Oh leave me alone!
A sinful tune I’ve just hummed
A blameless soul had I trapped,
Deep down the garden of thorns,
Deep down the chambers of untruthfulness…
Set him free!
Let him be!
It feels like being pursued by the angel of death,
As I can sense the momentary glare
from the viciousness of his somber eyes,
And haunt the nightmares of all nightmares
Can I keep this attic locked for eternity?
So that not a soul will venture?
That I shall wake in the arms of motherly warmth,
And sink into the bosom of truth.
Ah! Take me to your hands
And let the flow of pure water to wash away the filth
That long clotted the very stream of my soul…
I kinda expected it, but I still feel the pinch deep down. Never mind the trials, screw it. Easy to say. Hard to let go. Just a trial. Yeah, sooner or later it would be the real Edexcel exam. Funny huh people like me actually FAIL Math. I know everyone is saying oh please Choon Hui, Math is like the EASIEST thing you could possibly find in the world! Do more exercises...blah... I know that I've said this for the thousand times that I shouldn't compare, but... reality is all around us. No matter how hard you try to ignore the truth, the truth is, my Math still sucked. Like Hell.
Maybe Math is not my thing, I admit. Could it be a lie? An excuse to escape from all the injections of pain? Is that just an excuse to make me feel better? A big fat lie or a truth? What are lies and what can be considered as truth? Aren't we living on lies? what are the truths behind? We tell lies to make people feel better, we even tell lies to the children whereby we always ask them not to tell lies. What an irony.
Some people doesn't respond well to the 'after-effects' of lies. But I certainly do.
(A soul's prison)
Ah!
The guilty twist,
Churning my heart like a windmill gone wild!
The manipulated truth!
Stupid me! Foolish me!
Of how pathetically minded am I…
Sorry?
If only Lord forgives me…
I’ve summoned the demon to me,
I’ve awakened the devil from its grave,
I’ve spilled out the evil out of me…
Lead them to damnation!
Lead them to the pile of flaming flames!
Leave me alone!
Oh leave me alone!
A sinful tune I’ve just hummed
A blameless soul had I trapped,
Deep down the garden of thorns,
Deep down the chambers of untruthfulness…
Set him free!
Let him be!
It feels like being pursued by the angel of death,
As I can sense the momentary glare
from the viciousness of his somber eyes,
And haunt the nightmares of all nightmares
Can I keep this attic locked for eternity?
So that not a soul will venture?
That I shall wake in the arms of motherly warmth,
And sink into the bosom of truth.
Ah! Take me to your hands
And let the flow of pure water to wash away the filth
That long clotted the very stream of my soul…
Sunday, November 2, 2008
I 'LOVE' exams...
I HATE EXAAAAAAAAAMMSS!!!!! ARRRRRRGGGGHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!! WHAT THE F*#$%#%#@!!!!!
Ah...now I felt better. WAAAY better.
So sorry you guys, got to welcome you with all my 'pleasant' and 'fanciful' words...I majorly screwed most of my papers so far...especially LAW!!!!!!!! WHAT THE ... ?!! (ok..ok...deep breath...1...2...3...) Can't believe I screwed up, again. Despite all the exercises we did, it still came back to square 1... Clarissa and I were like oh shit, we're so f***ing dead...so so dead...some one shoot us please...
(imagining Mrs. Dharma pointing a bazooka at our face and fire, 'your results are PATHETIC!!! HEAR what I say? P-A-T-H-E-T-I-C!!! DON'T EVEN THINK OF BREATHING IN MY CLASS...KKAABOOMM...BOOOOFFFFF....)
There you go. A hell lot of pathetic crap happened. My Mechanics 1, uugghh... don't even mention about it. I don't think I could even get something higher that 10 marks... yeah... that's Choon Hui doing MATHS...(how terrible it sounds...m.a.t.h.s... =_= why can't they just name it, The Rule of Numerical Studies instead? No! Why in the first goddamn place this piece of sH*t existed)
my apologies again guys, no offense, but you DOknow
Choon Hui = hater of The Rule of Numerical Studies
Anyway...Not gonna have a long post or any poems for now coz' I still have loads to study and the next post I'll have a poem on LIES... big word eh? Stay tunned...
Ah...now I felt better. WAAAY better.
So sorry you guys, got to welcome you with all my 'pleasant' and 'fanciful' words...I majorly screwed most of my papers so far...especially LAW!!!!!!!! WHAT THE ... ?!! (ok..ok...deep breath...1...2...3...) Can't believe I screwed up, again. Despite all the exercises we did, it still came back to square 1... Clarissa and I were like oh shit, we're so f***ing dead...so so dead...some one shoot us please...
(imagining Mrs. Dharma pointing a bazooka at our face and fire, 'your results are PATHETIC!!! HEAR what I say? P-A-T-H-E-T-I-C!!! DON'T EVEN THINK OF BREATHING IN MY CLASS...KKAABOOMM...BOOOOFFFFF....)
There you go. A hell lot of pathetic crap happened. My Mechanics 1, uugghh... don't even mention about it. I don't think I could even get something higher that 10 marks... yeah... that's Choon Hui doing MATHS...(how terrible it sounds...m.a.t.h.s... =_= why can't they just name it, The Rule of Numerical Studies instead? No! Why in the first goddamn place this piece of sH*t existed)
my apologies again guys, no offense, but you DOknow
Choon Hui = hater of The Rule of Numerical Studies
Anyway...Not gonna have a long post or any poems for now coz' I still have loads to study and the next post I'll have a poem on LIES... big word eh? Stay tunned...
Thursday, October 23, 2008
Finally...I'm back with words...haha
Yeeloow people!!! ha-ha...Haven't been updating my blog for quite some time. Yeah thanks to all the law tests that is starting to suck the joy out of it...gosh I just had one today and most of us basically stared blankly at the question paper for a good 10 minutes before we started scribbling some unrelated nonsense ha-ha...So... we did Keats today during our lit class and it was an interesting lesson as Ms. Grace wrote out the major themes of his poems and asked us to relate the poems to the themes which nearly drove Alex crazy as we spot the poems like no one Else's business, where else he was scratching his head trying to figure out which one haha! and they're not many poems left since most of them had been convenientlyspotted by us...heeheehee xD
Can't believe next Wednesday is already our trials and guess what? I haven't even touch on Maths which is by far the worst subject for me. Wonder how would I even maintain a passing grade for my Mechanics 1...ugghh...Mrs. Sharma, our Bio lecturer just said that the Aussies are so proud of people taking Maths until they are capable of saying that nothing is more important than Maths and with Maths, you need nothing more... =_=' one word, PATHETIC!!! but anyway, good for you guys like Wai Lun who has been taking Maths and God knows what other branches of Maths is he taking and he's going to Aussie soon, so you'll be on top of the world. Ha-ha!
I used to wish that time was a flowing stream of river.
Now, I wished for time as a stagnant pool of water. How ironic.
That drove me to come up with this latest poem of mine called, Let it be time, for it is time. xD
Oh by the way, I have already written 64 poems. =D and I'm so very glad. It may just be words, but at least I do have something out of the extraordinary =)
(Let it be time, for it is time)
Let me dissolve in time,
For it is too short a life.
Let me be grounded in a crystal ball,
For I will be in goodness’s memory forevermore.
Let me a sculpture,
For I can witness the aging of present to history.
Let me be an urn, buried in legend,
For old is gold.
Let me be a painting,
For a moment captured be forever framed.
Let me be written into poesy,
For words will be eternally remained.
Let me be one with You,
For You is where I begun in time.
Can't believe next Wednesday is already our trials and guess what? I haven't even touch on Maths which is by far the worst subject for me. Wonder how would I even maintain a passing grade for my Mechanics 1...ugghh...Mrs. Sharma, our Bio lecturer just said that the Aussies are so proud of people taking Maths until they are capable of saying that nothing is more important than Maths and with Maths, you need nothing more... =_=' one word, PATHETIC!!! but anyway, good for you guys like Wai Lun who has been taking Maths and God knows what other branches of Maths is he taking and he's going to Aussie soon, so you'll be on top of the world. Ha-ha!
I used to wish that time was a flowing stream of river.
Now, I wished for time as a stagnant pool of water. How ironic.
That drove me to come up with this latest poem of mine called, Let it be time, for it is time. xD
Oh by the way, I have already written 64 poems. =D and I'm so very glad. It may just be words, but at least I do have something out of the extraordinary =)
(Let it be time, for it is time)
Let me dissolve in time,
For it is too short a life.
Let me be grounded in a crystal ball,
For I will be in goodness’s memory forevermore.
Let me a sculpture,
For I can witness the aging of present to history.
Let me be an urn, buried in legend,
For old is gold.
Let me be a painting,
For a moment captured be forever framed.
Let me be written into poesy,
For words will be eternally remained.
Let me be one with You,
For You is where I begun in time.
Friday, October 17, 2008
Tagged by Ms. Angeline...
ALOHA people! now I cant believe I've actually asked someone to tag me...hahaha coz I think I kinda fancy this tag where you use the songs in the player to answer them and mainly because I have lots of MARIAH songs in my player (DUH...) XD so I asked for it..hehe...here it goes.
The Golden Rules:
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn't make sense.
4. With the answers, give your own comments on how they relate to the questions.
5 . Tag at least 5 people.
1. How are you feeling today?
-One love by BLUE
Feeling loved? =D
2. If someone says, “Is this okay?” You say?
-Greatest gift of all by Jim Brickman and Michelle Wright
If i were to receive anything as a present, I'll say this is definitely the greatest gift of all!
3. What do you like in a guy/girl?
-Cant fight the moonlight by LeAnn Rimes
A fighter, but a moonlight melody at heart (deep huh??) XD
4. Will you get far in life?
-God bless the broken road by Rascal Flats
How appropriate!! A journey of life that's determined by HIM...Lord bless me =)
5. What do you think about very often?
-It's like that by Mariah Carey
ehh...like that lor...hahaha
6. What is 2 + 2?
-All that I need by Boyzone
4 is not everything I need leh...haha
7. What's your best friend's theme song?
-Mine again by Mariah Carey
hmm....I doubt it coz it seems MC has something against him...muahaha
8. What is the story of your life?
-Anytime you need a friend by Mariah Carey!
My story will not be complete without my buddies =D
9. What is/was your high school like?
-Time to say goodbye by Sarah Brightman and Andrea Bocelli
I hate to goodbye to my high school life...thats how I would describe
10. What is your motto?
-The greatest love of all by Whitney Houston
Inspired by LOVE and guided by knowledge =)
11. What’s the best thing about your friends?
-Open arm by Mariah Carey
Their open arms of course =D
12. What do you think of the person you like?
-I'll never break your heart by Backstreet Boys
heehee...
13. What do you want to be when you grow up?
-Can't let go by Mariah Carey
I can't let go of MONEY!!! so I wanna be a TRILLIONAIR!!! hahahaha
14. What do you think of when you see the person you like?
-Butterfly kisses by Bob Carlisle
hmm....the kisses?! OMG... =_='
15. Describe your grandparents.
-One moment in time by Whitney Houston
I've lost both my grandfathers and my my grandmothers are living in this wonderful moment
16. How's your life going?
-Baby can I hold you by Boyzone
=_=' can I hold you back Mr. Time?
17. What is your biggest fear?
-Without you by Mariah Carey
Living without you mummy. =D
18. What will be played at your funeral?
-As long as you love me by Backstreet Boys
yeah...as long as you guys love me.. =)
19. What is your hobby/interest?
-Because we believe by Andrea Bocelli
=_=' can't think of anything...
20. Will you have a happy life?
-Flying without wings by Westlife
The song explains it =)
21. What do your friends really think of you?
-Let the music heal your soul by Bravo all stars
hmm...soothing comforter? XD
22. Do people secretly lust after you?
-I stay in love by Mariah Carey
I'll say STAY IN LOVE PEOPLE!
23. How can you make yourself happy?
-Bringing on the heartbreak by Mariah Carey
=_=' never know that'll make me happy...
24. Will you ever have children?
-Everyday I love you by Boyzone
mom says she wants a DOZEN! =_='
25. What song would you strip to?
-How do you want me to love you by 911
=_='
26. What does your mom think of you?
-I will remember you by Sarah McLachian
She'll remember me as a good son xD
27. What do you think of your parents?
-After tonight by Mariah Carey
not just tonight, they're forever great, day and night
28. What is your deep, dark secret?
-At the beginning OST of Anatasia
at the beginning I was...(not to be revealed) ;-P
29. What is your enemy's theme song?
-All that you want by Gary Barlow
All that it takes to accept me as your friend
30. What will you dance to at your wedding?
-That's the way it is by Celine Dion
Celine Dion?! haha
HAHA..that's about it...so I'll tag...
-WENG CHUNG
-CLARISSA
-JIAN FUNG
-KELVIN
-ALITHEA
Have fun guys! =D
The Golden Rules:
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn't make sense.
4. With the answers, give your own comments on how they relate to the questions.
5 . Tag at least 5 people.
1. How are you feeling today?
-One love by BLUE
Feeling loved? =D
2. If someone says, “Is this okay?” You say?
-Greatest gift of all by Jim Brickman and Michelle Wright
If i were to receive anything as a present, I'll say this is definitely the greatest gift of all!
3. What do you like in a guy/girl?
-Cant fight the moonlight by LeAnn Rimes
A fighter, but a moonlight melody at heart (deep huh??) XD
4. Will you get far in life?
-God bless the broken road by Rascal Flats
How appropriate!! A journey of life that's determined by HIM...Lord bless me =)
5. What do you think about very often?
-It's like that by Mariah Carey
ehh...like that lor...hahaha
6. What is 2 + 2?
-All that I need by Boyzone
4 is not everything I need leh...haha
7. What's your best friend's theme song?
-Mine again by Mariah Carey
hmm....I doubt it coz it seems MC has something against him...muahaha
8. What is the story of your life?
-Anytime you need a friend by Mariah Carey!
My story will not be complete without my buddies =D
9. What is/was your high school like?
-Time to say goodbye by Sarah Brightman and Andrea Bocelli
I hate to goodbye to my high school life...thats how I would describe
10. What is your motto?
-The greatest love of all by Whitney Houston
Inspired by LOVE and guided by knowledge =)
11. What’s the best thing about your friends?
-Open arm by Mariah Carey
Their open arms of course =D
12. What do you think of the person you like?
-I'll never break your heart by Backstreet Boys
heehee...
13. What do you want to be when you grow up?
-Can't let go by Mariah Carey
I can't let go of MONEY!!! so I wanna be a TRILLIONAIR!!! hahahaha
14. What do you think of when you see the person you like?
-Butterfly kisses by Bob Carlisle
hmm....the kisses?! OMG... =_='
15. Describe your grandparents.
-One moment in time by Whitney Houston
I've lost both my grandfathers and my my grandmothers are living in this wonderful moment
16. How's your life going?
-Baby can I hold you by Boyzone
=_=' can I hold you back Mr. Time?
17. What is your biggest fear?
-Without you by Mariah Carey
Living without you mummy. =D
18. What will be played at your funeral?
-As long as you love me by Backstreet Boys
yeah...as long as you guys love me.. =)
19. What is your hobby/interest?
-Because we believe by Andrea Bocelli
=_=' can't think of anything...
20. Will you have a happy life?
-Flying without wings by Westlife
The song explains it =)
21. What do your friends really think of you?
-Let the music heal your soul by Bravo all stars
hmm...soothing comforter? XD
22. Do people secretly lust after you?
-I stay in love by Mariah Carey
I'll say STAY IN LOVE PEOPLE!
23. How can you make yourself happy?
-Bringing on the heartbreak by Mariah Carey
=_=' never know that'll make me happy...
24. Will you ever have children?
-Everyday I love you by Boyzone
mom says she wants a DOZEN! =_='
25. What song would you strip to?
-How do you want me to love you by 911
=_='
26. What does your mom think of you?
-I will remember you by Sarah McLachian
She'll remember me as a good son xD
27. What do you think of your parents?
-After tonight by Mariah Carey
not just tonight, they're forever great, day and night
28. What is your deep, dark secret?
-At the beginning OST of Anatasia
at the beginning I was...(not to be revealed) ;-P
29. What is your enemy's theme song?
-All that you want by Gary Barlow
All that it takes to accept me as your friend
30. What will you dance to at your wedding?
-That's the way it is by Celine Dion
Celine Dion?! haha
HAHA..that's about it...so I'll tag...
-WENG CHUNG
-CLARISSA
-JIAN FUNG
-KELVIN
-ALITHEA
Have fun guys! =D
Friday, October 10, 2008
A thousand words but a silent void...
Feelings. What a word. So much to say, so much to tell. Yet, it fails me.
My journey of life, certainly is a mountain of hills and valleys, a chapter of endless tales and a journey of roller-coaster ride.
At times, words just don't seemed to flow in our minds and feelings, yes, I mean feelings always got the better of you. I always ponder upon events that coincide my life and somehow, for certain reasons, I am unable to describe how I feel or who am I deep down in me, although this may sound like an 'ordinary emotional poet like KEATS' whom I never intended to be. Still, not a syllable I can say nor tell although at a certain point, I have been through so much that I felt I could write a book, after a while, gone are the thousand words, gone are the voices...Be it truth, be it lies, all burried in the deepest soil that no one can reach, and there comes a fountain of the untold and unheard.
(A thousand of a thousand)
A book with a thousand words,
Seemed like a never ending fountain,
That goes on forever-and ever-and ever.
My mind with a thousand emotions,
Feels like a sea of human faces,
Passing me by with questions unanswered.
The sky with a thousand stars,
Glint and shine like a goddess’ gem.
Decorated heaven with glows of the ancient guardian.
My spirit with a thousand sobs,
Nothing heals better than an erased memory,
That clings on to the core deep down in me.
The stream with a thousand glitter,
Turned into a river frozen with the untold,
Iced-up with the unheard.
My journey of life, certainly is a mountain of hills and valleys, a chapter of endless tales and a journey of roller-coaster ride.
At times, words just don't seemed to flow in our minds and feelings, yes, I mean feelings always got the better of you. I always ponder upon events that coincide my life and somehow, for certain reasons, I am unable to describe how I feel or who am I deep down in me, although this may sound like an 'ordinary emotional poet like KEATS' whom I never intended to be. Still, not a syllable I can say nor tell although at a certain point, I have been through so much that I felt I could write a book, after a while, gone are the thousand words, gone are the voices...Be it truth, be it lies, all burried in the deepest soil that no one can reach, and there comes a fountain of the untold and unheard.
(A thousand of a thousand)
A book with a thousand words,
Seemed like a never ending fountain,
That goes on forever-and ever-and ever.
My mind with a thousand emotions,
Feels like a sea of human faces,
Passing me by with questions unanswered.
The sky with a thousand stars,
Glint and shine like a goddess’ gem.
Decorated heaven with glows of the ancient guardian.
My spirit with a thousand sobs,
Nothing heals better than an erased memory,
That clings on to the core deep down in me.
The stream with a thousand glitter,
Turned into a river frozen with the untold,
Iced-up with the unheard.
Sunday, October 5, 2008
tagged by Weng Chung...
OMG...i cant believe i'm doin this in the middle of 2 am...great..no thanks to weng chung...anyway...i just wanna tag...err...CLARISSA, ERIC and MS. ANGELONTHELINE =D...so guys...u're tagged!!!hahaha..and guess what, this is the 1st time being tagged and the 1st time i'm tagging other people...
01. What have you been doing recently?
lots of internet and i've been studyin for my trials...sobs...
02. Do you ever turn your cell phone off?
yup, at night when i'm asleep..infrared waves bad for us lar..haha
03. What happened at 10.00am today?
-was having my breakfast at 6 happiness restaurant-having dim sum =D
04. When did you last cry?
-no idea xD
05. Believe in fate/destiny?
-definitely!! read my poems and u'll know =D
06. What do you want in your life right now?
hmm, MONEY!!! haha well health, family members being together and A's for my exams =)
07. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains, or just put up your hood?
-umbrella, ella, ella, eh, eh... =_='
08. What’s your favourite thing to have on your bed?
-my boaster =D
09. What bottom are you wearing now?
-NOTHING!!! 0.O''' hahaha shorts la...
10. What’s the nicest text in your inbox say?
-hmm some chinese text sent by Kin Yang the day before high school graduation
11. Do you tend to make a relationship complicated?
-never did, life shouldn't be complicated =D
12. Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone?
-NO!!!
13. What was the last movie you caught?
-Band of Brothers on dvd...awsome movie!!
14. What are you proud of?
-myself i gueesed? hahaha, my height and my voice i guess???muahaha (perasan betul)
15. What does the oldest message in your inbox says?
-ai yor...i have messages dated back to 2005 la..haha it's bout a silly joke..haha
16. What was the last song you sang out loud?
-the american national anthem?! MUAHAHAHA not that i feel in love with the people...haha
17. Do you have any nicknames?
-not that i know....maybe choon choon called by Stefanie?? =.=' haha
18. What does your last received text message say?
-y u wanna know? heeheehee
19. What time did you go to bed last night?
-11.57 pm?
20. Are you currently happy?
-not really...hard to describe
21. Who gives you best advice?
-MOM!!!
22. Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
-i would love to do that =D but i do like to eat the cream 1st frm my favorite JUMBO PUFF bought frm KLCC..haha
23. Who did you talk on phone last night?
-MOM?
24. Is anything bugging you right now?
-yea...my trials and
25. What/who was the last thing/person to make you laugh?
-mom wacking dad! hahaha thats hilarious
26. Do you wear toe socks?
-what on earth are those???
27. Who was the last person you missed a call from?
-tak tau lar..haha
28. Have you ever had your heartbroken?
-definitely duh...
29. What annoys you most in a person?
-i hate fakers and those who are blind towards other people's feelings
30. Do you have a crush on anyone?
-yea...
31. Have you ever done cocaine?
-even i were to die also i wont do it
32. What is the colour of your room?
-white =_='''
33. Would you kill someone you hate for a billion dollar?
- why would i? i'm a BUDDHIST!!! =D no one can do bad in my blog since i put up such holy pic =)
34. Do you believe in the saying of : talk is cheap?
-NO! it costs u ur life if u say something wrong
35. Who was the last person to lie in your bed?
-my bro =.=
36. Who was the last person to hug you?
-mom =)
37. Did anyone see the last person you kissed?
-i never kissed anybody
38. Do you have a life?
-what?! what kind of question is this?!!
39. Have you ever think someone died, when they really didnt die?
- =_='
40. What is the reason behind your profile song?
-i just loved it and i wanna put that as my wedding theme song...hahaha
41. Who was the last person you saw in your dream?
-forgotten...
42. Last time you smiled?
-when answering question 40 =DD
43. Have you changed this year?
-hmm...i think so...physically and mentally
44. What are you listening right now?
-nothing
45. Are you talking to someone when you doing this?
-no...
46. Do you walk with your eyes open or closed?
-another f****ing question...haha
47. Is there a quote you live by?
-inspired by love and guided by knowledge
48. Do you want someone you cannot have?
-absolutely, that will be MARIAH CAREY!!! =D she's my ultimate fav singer...
49. Have you ever played an instrument?
-yes, a piano...and my only isntrument now to me is my voice =D
50. What was the worst idea you’ve had in this week?
-to not to study...
51. What are you doing last night at 11pm?
-half way through my M'sian Studies assignment...=_=' wat a 'fabulous' sub...
52. Are you happy with your love life right now?
-i'm not taken and i'm available ;-P
53. What song best describe your love life?
-i'm not in love lor...
54. Does the person know that you like him/her?
-not to be told...
55. Who always make you laugh?
-mom, friends...
56. Do you speak other language other than English?
-oh yes of course...mandarin, malay, hokkien, canto
57. Favourite website(s)?
-youtube and Yahoo...haha
58. What’s your middle name?
-Choon
59. What are you doing tomorrow?
-no idea, breakfast, then maybe will go to shop for a pair of new shoes and then back home, reading..
60. What do you think you are like?
-A HUMAN...
61. Who will you choose to die with?
-my soul...
62. Where have you been today?
-Jusco Wangsa Maju
63. What game do you play often?
-i seldom play games...UNO on msn i guess
64. Who are you missing right now?
-my old self...
65. If you have to choose between friend and love, who will you choose?
-friend
66. What are you doing right now?
- another question like that...i'm gonna swear =.=
67. Which primary school are you from?
-i'm frm 4 primary schools xD
68. Name 3 colours that you like?
-white, navy blue, black
69. What emotion you like to show?
-calm and steady
70. What is your life to you?
-everything, a period of time where i could live my desired dreams
71. If you have something troubling you, what will you do?
-sleep it off and most probably pen a poem..what else can i do?
72. Who did you last chat in msn today?
-Eric, Weng Chung, Kheng Hong
73. Who do you admire most?
-Mariah Carey and my MOM
74. Which month are you born in?
-April
75. How are you feeling right now?
-pathetically tired...
76. What is the time now?
-1.45 a.m
77. What kind of person do u think the one who tagged you is?
-funny, intelligent, unexpected
78.What colour did you use to dye hair?
-no dye plz...
79. Why are you doing this test?
-just to please sumone... =.=
80. What do you do when you’re moody?
-sleep it off as i say...a poem will help...listen to some Mariah Carey
81. At which age you wish to get married?
-whenever after i'm successful
82. Who is more important to you?
-mom and brother
83. If today is the last day of your life, what will you do?
-write the last poem and spent the last moments with my family.
84. Who is the person you trust the most?
-mom of course
85. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after a rain?
-yes i do. =)
86. If you have a dream come true, what would it be?
-seeing Mariah Carey face to face
87. What is your goal for this year?
- to get at at least 1 A for my trials...
88. Do you believe in eternity love?
-yes...but its hard to find nowadays...
89. What feeling do you love most?
-happiness and serenity
90. Do you really think its Global Warming now?
-duh...
91.What feeling do you hate the most?
-fright and disappointment and embarrassment
92. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
-yes...for always
93. Do you believe in God?
-i believe in Gods and Buddha
94. Who cares for you most?
-mom =D
95. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
-being able to take care of bro and mom...for now, getting into a good U and scoring grades
96. What will you bring when you fight?
- i dont fight...
97. What have you done regretted doing in your whole life?
-bullying Chu Wen, my primary 4 classmate, and i just loose contact with her...
98. What would you feel if no one no longer cares for you?
-i'll accept it as my fate...
99. What if your boyfriend/girlfriend two-timed you?
-wtf...
100. HOW DO U FEEL NOW?
-you tell me... =_='''
01. What have you been doing recently?
lots of internet and i've been studyin for my trials...sobs...
02. Do you ever turn your cell phone off?
yup, at night when i'm asleep..infrared waves bad for us lar..haha
03. What happened at 10.00am today?
-was having my breakfast at 6 happiness restaurant-having dim sum =D
04. When did you last cry?
-no idea xD
05. Believe in fate/destiny?
-definitely!! read my poems and u'll know =D
06. What do you want in your life right now?
hmm, MONEY!!! haha well health, family members being together and A's for my exams =)
07. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains, or just put up your hood?
-umbrella, ella, ella, eh, eh... =_='
08. What’s your favourite thing to have on your bed?
-my boaster =D
09. What bottom are you wearing now?
-NOTHING!!! 0.O''' hahaha shorts la...
10. What’s the nicest text in your inbox say?
-hmm some chinese text sent by Kin Yang the day before high school graduation
11. Do you tend to make a relationship complicated?
-never did, life shouldn't be complicated =D
12. Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone?
-NO!!!
13. What was the last movie you caught?
-Band of Brothers on dvd...awsome movie!!
14. What are you proud of?
-myself i gueesed? hahaha, my height and my voice i guess???muahaha (perasan betul)
15. What does the oldest message in your inbox says?
-ai yor...i have messages dated back to 2005 la..haha it's bout a silly joke..haha
16. What was the last song you sang out loud?
-the american national anthem?! MUAHAHAHA not that i feel in love with the people...haha
17. Do you have any nicknames?
-not that i know....maybe choon choon called by Stefanie?? =.=' haha
18. What does your last received text message say?
-y u wanna know? heeheehee
19. What time did you go to bed last night?
-11.57 pm?
20. Are you currently happy?
-not really...hard to describe
21. Who gives you best advice?
-MOM!!!
22. Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
-i would love to do that =D but i do like to eat the cream 1st frm my favorite JUMBO PUFF bought frm KLCC..haha
23. Who did you talk on phone last night?
-MOM?
24. Is anything bugging you right now?
-yea...my trials and
25. What/who was the last thing/person to make you laugh?
-mom wacking dad! hahaha thats hilarious
26. Do you wear toe socks?
-what on earth are those???
27. Who was the last person you missed a call from?
-tak tau lar..haha
28. Have you ever had your heartbroken?
-definitely duh...
29. What annoys you most in a person?
-i hate fakers and those who are blind towards other people's feelings
30. Do you have a crush on anyone?
-yea...
31. Have you ever done cocaine?
-even i were to die also i wont do it
32. What is the colour of your room?
-white =_='''
33. Would you kill someone you hate for a billion dollar?
- why would i? i'm a BUDDHIST!!! =D no one can do bad in my blog since i put up such holy pic =)
34. Do you believe in the saying of : talk is cheap?
-NO! it costs u ur life if u say something wrong
35. Who was the last person to lie in your bed?
-my bro =.=
36. Who was the last person to hug you?
-mom =)
37. Did anyone see the last person you kissed?
-i never kissed anybody
38. Do you have a life?
-what?! what kind of question is this?!!
39. Have you ever think someone died, when they really didnt die?
- =_='
40. What is the reason behind your profile song?
-i just loved it and i wanna put that as my wedding theme song...hahaha
41. Who was the last person you saw in your dream?
-forgotten...
42. Last time you smiled?
-when answering question 40 =DD
43. Have you changed this year?
-hmm...i think so...physically and mentally
44. What are you listening right now?
-nothing
45. Are you talking to someone when you doing this?
-no...
46. Do you walk with your eyes open or closed?
-another f****ing question...haha
47. Is there a quote you live by?
-inspired by love and guided by knowledge
48. Do you want someone you cannot have?
-absolutely, that will be MARIAH CAREY!!! =D she's my ultimate fav singer...
49. Have you ever played an instrument?
-yes, a piano...and my only isntrument now to me is my voice =D
50. What was the worst idea you’ve had in this week?
-to not to study...
51. What are you doing last night at 11pm?
-half way through my M'sian Studies assignment...=_=' wat a 'fabulous' sub...
52. Are you happy with your love life right now?
-i'm not taken and i'm available ;-P
53. What song best describe your love life?
-i'm not in love lor...
54. Does the person know that you like him/her?
-not to be told...
55. Who always make you laugh?
-mom, friends...
56. Do you speak other language other than English?
-oh yes of course...mandarin, malay, hokkien, canto
57. Favourite website(s)?
-youtube and Yahoo...haha
58. What’s your middle name?
-Choon
59. What are you doing tomorrow?
-no idea, breakfast, then maybe will go to shop for a pair of new shoes and then back home, reading..
60. What do you think you are like?
-A HUMAN...
61. Who will you choose to die with?
-my soul...
62. Where have you been today?
-Jusco Wangsa Maju
63. What game do you play often?
-i seldom play games...UNO on msn i guess
64. Who are you missing right now?
-my old self...
65. If you have to choose between friend and love, who will you choose?
-friend
66. What are you doing right now?
- another question like that...i'm gonna swear =.=
67. Which primary school are you from?
-i'm frm 4 primary schools xD
68. Name 3 colours that you like?
-white, navy blue, black
69. What emotion you like to show?
-calm and steady
70. What is your life to you?
-everything, a period of time where i could live my desired dreams
71. If you have something troubling you, what will you do?
-sleep it off and most probably pen a poem..what else can i do?
72. Who did you last chat in msn today?
-Eric, Weng Chung, Kheng Hong
73. Who do you admire most?
-Mariah Carey and my MOM
74. Which month are you born in?
-April
75. How are you feeling right now?
-pathetically tired...
76. What is the time now?
-1.45 a.m
77. What kind of person do u think the one who tagged you is?
-funny, intelligent, unexpected
78.What colour did you use to dye hair?
-no dye plz...
79. Why are you doing this test?
-just to please sumone... =.=
80. What do you do when you’re moody?
-sleep it off as i say...a poem will help...listen to some Mariah Carey
81. At which age you wish to get married?
-whenever after i'm successful
82. Who is more important to you?
-mom and brother
83. If today is the last day of your life, what will you do?
-write the last poem and spent the last moments with my family.
84. Who is the person you trust the most?
-mom of course
85. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after a rain?
-yes i do. =)
86. If you have a dream come true, what would it be?
-seeing Mariah Carey face to face
87. What is your goal for this year?
- to get at at least 1 A for my trials...
88. Do you believe in eternity love?
-yes...but its hard to find nowadays...
89. What feeling do you love most?
-happiness and serenity
90. Do you really think its Global Warming now?
-duh...
91.What feeling do you hate the most?
-fright and disappointment and embarrassment
92. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
-yes...for always
93. Do you believe in God?
-i believe in Gods and Buddha
94. Who cares for you most?
-mom =D
95. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
-being able to take care of bro and mom...for now, getting into a good U and scoring grades
96. What will you bring when you fight?
- i dont fight...
97. What have you done regretted doing in your whole life?
-bullying Chu Wen, my primary 4 classmate, and i just loose contact with her...
98. What would you feel if no one no longer cares for you?
-i'll accept it as my fate...
99. What if your boyfriend/girlfriend two-timed you?
-wtf...
100. HOW DO U FEEL NOW?
-you tell me... =_='''
Friday, October 3, 2008
Of Brothers and Bonds
Have you ever wonder how life would be like when we are still at war in this very second? Or for the guys, have you ever thought of how does it feel if you were to become a soldier and the country lies in the hands of yours? I did.
I was overwhelmed by feelings after watching 'Band of Brothers' by Steven Spielberg and Tom Hanks and once again, I was sharing the same minds of the 'brothers' in that movie as if I was there, witnessing the whole moment all these while.
'Beyond the wounded and killed, every men in Bastogne suffered. Men unhit by shrapnel or bullets were nevertheless casualties.'
Stephen E. Ambrose
That quotation explains my feelings at the very moment. I'm certain that this was also felt by all the ex-soldiers who had helplessly watched and seen their pals got hit in the midst of a fiery war.
And so... the story goes on. And I am really thankful to Lord that I was not born into the century of agony and death, instead, I was sent to a time where I'm able to sit in front of my computer comfortably with the air conditioner on. In fact, ever since I watched 'Pearl Harbor' starring Josh Hartnett and 'Empire of the sun' starring Christian Bale, I started to fancy movies with the settings of the post-1900 and movies regarding the Second World War. Not because of the violence inflicted of course, but the values hailed from these kind of movies. The bondage of 'war-buddies' and brotherhood, which has almost, always, gives a sense of awe to me. Well of course I'm not just referring to the American soldiers in particular, but to all soldiers and those true warriors out there who had fought for their countries and been through the 'hell on earth',
I salute you with my deepest respect. And here I dedicate a beautiful medley by Mariah Carey. It's actually a cross-over between 2 songs called Never too far and Hero. Listen to the song and here are the lyrics. Enjoy and be one with the song =D
You're with me
Till the bitter end
What we had transcends
This experience
Too painful to
Talk about
So I'll hold it in
Til my heart can mend
And be brave enough to love again
A place in time
Still belongs to us
Stays preserved in my mind
In the memories there is solace
Oh,
Never too far away
I won't let time erase
One bit of yesterday
Cause I have learned that
Nobody can take your place
Though we can never be
I'll keep you close to me always remember
Love
When you feel like hope is gone,
Look inside you and be strong,
And you'll finally see the truth,
that a hero lies in you.
Lord knows, dreams are hard to follow
But don't let anyone, tear them away.
Hold on, there will be tomorrow.
In time, you'll find the way
And then a hero comes along, with the strength to carry on,
And you cast your fears aside, and you know you can survive.
So when you feel like hope is gone,
Look inside you and be strong,
And you'll finally see the truth, that a hero lies in you.
That a hero lies in you
Nobody can take your place
You're never too far
Never too far away, the battle, the tears, the blood, the joy, the victory will always lie deep within a warrior's book of life, and no matter what, he and the rest of the 'brothers' will always stay connected in each other's heart where a true hero lies within. ;-)
I was overwhelmed by feelings after watching 'Band of Brothers' by Steven Spielberg and Tom Hanks and once again, I was sharing the same minds of the 'brothers' in that movie as if I was there, witnessing the whole moment all these while.
'Beyond the wounded and killed, every men in Bastogne suffered. Men unhit by shrapnel or bullets were nevertheless casualties.'Stephen E. Ambrose
That quotation explains my feelings at the very moment. I'm certain that this was also felt by all the ex-soldiers who had helplessly watched and seen their pals got hit in the midst of a fiery war.
And so... the story goes on. And I am really thankful to Lord that I was not born into the century of agony and death, instead, I was sent to a time where I'm able to sit in front of my computer comfortably with the air conditioner on. In fact, ever since I watched 'Pearl Harbor' starring Josh Hartnett and 'Empire of the sun' starring Christian Bale, I started to fancy movies with the settings of the post-1900 and movies regarding the Second World War. Not because of the violence inflicted of course, but the values hailed from these kind of movies. The bondage of 'war-buddies' and brotherhood, which has almost, always, gives a sense of awe to me. Well of course I'm not just referring to the American soldiers in particular, but to all soldiers and those true warriors out there who had fought for their countries and been through the 'hell on earth',
I salute you with my deepest respect. And here I dedicate a beautiful medley by Mariah Carey. It's actually a cross-over between 2 songs called Never too far and Hero. Listen to the song and here are the lyrics. Enjoy and be one with the song =D
You're with me
Till the bitter end
What we had transcends
This experience
Too painful to
Talk about
So I'll hold it in
Til my heart can mend
And be brave enough to love again
A place in time
Still belongs to us
Stays preserved in my mind
In the memories there is solace
Oh,
Never too far away
I won't let time erase
One bit of yesterday
Cause I have learned that
Nobody can take your place
Though we can never be
I'll keep you close to me always remember
Love
When you feel like hope is gone,
Look inside you and be strong,
And you'll finally see the truth,
that a hero lies in you.
Lord knows, dreams are hard to follow
But don't let anyone, tear them away.
Hold on, there will be tomorrow.
In time, you'll find the way
And then a hero comes along, with the strength to carry on,
And you cast your fears aside, and you know you can survive.
So when you feel like hope is gone,
Look inside you and be strong,
And you'll finally see the truth, that a hero lies in you.
That a hero lies in you
Nobody can take your place
You're never too far
Never too far away, the battle, the tears, the blood, the joy, the victory will always lie deep within a warrior's book of life, and no matter what, he and the rest of the 'brothers' will always stay connected in each other's heart where a true hero lies within. ;-)
God bless.
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
To nature's path, to human's soul
As I've studied in literature, John Keats, whom I really wished to dig him up of his grave and swear the brains out of him for making our life miserable with the questioning of his so called 'role of a poet' He's no doubt famous for his odes and more importantly, one of the significant characteristics of his poems are often associated with imaginations and the natural world. Though dreadful and indecisive about the feelings and emotions that are attached to him and most of the time, he's sort of in the state of 'intoxication', somehow, I do find what he said is what we, humans have begin to lost touch of. That is to be one with nature. Although it may not be such an important factor that influences our daily lives, but look at it from this perspective, once we die, we are buried, we decay, we rot and our parts are digested by the fungi and microorganisms, in the end, we will return to earth, our soul is permanent, but our bodily shell will soon returned to where it belonged.
Well I guess you kinda know what I'm gonna do next..hahaha...YES! a poem! haha!! alright, I actually composed this in the LRT as I splendidly forgotten to bring along my mp3 during a loooooog journey and it was after a rain that sparked the writing soul in me...muahaha...it's basically a piece that shows the sounds and senses of mother nature that affects the persona and how nature brings him closer to himself and the fountain within him.
(To nature’s path, to human’s soul)
A rainbow always comes after a pour,
And sunshine comes after a gloom.
When I looked into the woods,
And breathe a breath of earth-scented nature…
How it sooths vengeance soul, my fiery nerves.
The mist-veiled hills and mountains,
Became the altar of the whispering guardian.
The river carries the souls of the jagged stones
And mighty pebbles,
Down to a stream of little voices…
I looked at heaven again,
The rainbow banished,
The sun a giant ball of warmth,
Melting the winter barrier of the inhabitants,
Who are yet to be one with nature.
Well I guess you kinda know what I'm gonna do next..hahaha...YES! a poem! haha!! alright, I actually composed this in the LRT as I splendidly forgotten to bring along my mp3 during a loooooog journey and it was after a rain that sparked the writing soul in me...muahaha...it's basically a piece that shows the sounds and senses of mother nature that affects the persona and how nature brings him closer to himself and the fountain within him.
(To nature’s path, to human’s soul)
A rainbow always comes after a pour,
And sunshine comes after a gloom.
When I looked into the woods,
And breathe a breath of earth-scented nature…
How it sooths vengeance soul, my fiery nerves.
The mist-veiled hills and mountains,
Became the altar of the whispering guardian.
The river carries the souls of the jagged stones
And mighty pebbles,
Down to a stream of little voices…
I looked at heaven again,
The rainbow banished,
The sun a giant ball of warmth,
Melting the winter barrier of the inhabitants,
Who are yet to be one with nature.
Friday, September 26, 2008
A trip to a town of nature
Good day! Good times always passed like a bullet train and yes, I had an awesome weekend with the children and volunteers of the Special Needs Learning Centre (SNLC) of Bukit Nanas which is where my brother is having his schooling. A trip was organized by the centre to Sg. Klah’s hot spring resort which is situated in the FELDA residence. By god, it was really a get-away from the hustle and bustle of city life! Not to mention the hot spring and the greens were just mesmerizing, even the resort area was a paradise! Guys, you people should seriously consider to make a trip there and I’m sure you will never forget.
It took us about 1 and a half hour drive to Sungkai exit at the highway and about 35 minutes drive towards the hot spring resort. I’m seriously thankful that I made it for the trip as I thought it was just another boring ‘rural trip’ and boy I was wrong! We just had so much fun there, everyone basically enjoyed themselves to the max and I was glad that the children did had fun too =D so for the first day, some of them reached there way earlier than us so they proceeded to the hot spring first. We met the group at the cafeteria and after lunch we went to the lobby to check in and I was kinda shocked to fin that the rooms were decently kept with simplicity and the best thing is the room was spacious! It can even fit 2 king size beds in the room with lots of space left. Although it was not as luxurious as those in the cities, but this is the whole purpose of it! Simplicity in the town of nature. Ha-ha.
We spent most of our late afternoon walking around the whole area from the palm estate to the spot of the hot spring then the rest of the evening was free and easy whereby me and my brother with a couple of families went to the hot spring therapeutic spot with individual pools and a stream of spring water running across the lane of rocks for foot reflexology. The temperature of the spring can reach till 50 degrees which we basically jumped like ants on a hot pan when we immersed our legs in the pools and especially walking on stones with hot water really made all of us went jumping like monkeys! XD there were various pools with different temperatures and all one has to do was just to soak your legs or immerse yourself into the pool of steaming spring water. It was really crazy at first since the water was so freaking hot, but surprisingly after awhile, you will actually get used to the temperature. We then went to the cold spot where an artificial waterfall lied and it’s actually a huge pool like those in Sunway Lagoon. It was really hilarious where the children will be sitting on us and we had a ‘pool fight’ and we men actually fought against each other. Hahaha! It was fun to see us drowning and defeating each other. Haha… then, it’s time for the hot pool where the water was even warmer than before. You can basically feel the scorching heat of the water on your skin especially when you’re topless =_=’ yeah… I was forced to strip…=.=’’’ and by the time when your lower body touched the water…my goodness. It feels like a zillion years…(you get what I mean especially for the guys =_=’…)
After dinner at the coffeehouse, we danced and sang all night long with the children. It was just fun all the way. Everyone was shy at first then all the funny dance moves started to kick in we were laughing our lungs out at some of the children and parents’ dances.
We went soccer with the children the next day in the morning after breakfast. It was another crazy moment. All the parents and siblings started screaming and yelling when the ball came to them or they’ll be yelling ‘KICK TO ME! KICK TO ME!!!’ hahaha…I actually played barefooted until I had my front toe injured =_=’ no big deal. Just a little blood here and there and that’s about it. XD but I still managed to pass the ball to them for our very first goal hahaha! Later on, we went for the egg boiling activity which was kinda weird to see eggs being ‘boiled’ in the pool of water. Can you imagine how hot the water was that only 8 minutes is required to have a full-boiled egg. See photos below :p
Went to pool again and had lunch before we checked out. It was really a journey worth the remembrance. Not only we got to experience all the interesting stuff but going on a trip with these kind of special kids made the trip even more meaningful than ever. =D definitely looking for another trip like that in future.
A scenic view of Sg. Klah, Felda.
A walk in the palm tree estate.
Therapeutic spot.
That’s my brother with his forced grin. (It was really hot!) =D
The coffeehouse.
Party through the night! XD
That is my brother and one of his teachers, Melanie. The guy with striped-T is one of the French volunteers, Frederick.
Mom with Ruben. =)
The resort through my lenses. Not bad huh my photographing skills. :p
The resort’s pathway.
Ann, Seng Kiat, Mrs. Kerk and Pierre at the breakfast table.
Brother, Mom and dad.
That guy covering his nose at the right is me =_=’
Me, brother, Shawn, Pierre.
Eggs in the pool! 
My dad's horrible photographing skills which captured my pathetically horrible grin =_='
It took us about 1 and a half hour drive to Sungkai exit at the highway and about 35 minutes drive towards the hot spring resort. I’m seriously thankful that I made it for the trip as I thought it was just another boring ‘rural trip’ and boy I was wrong! We just had so much fun there, everyone basically enjoyed themselves to the max and I was glad that the children did had fun too =D so for the first day, some of them reached there way earlier than us so they proceeded to the hot spring first. We met the group at the cafeteria and after lunch we went to the lobby to check in and I was kinda shocked to fin that the rooms were decently kept with simplicity and the best thing is the room was spacious! It can even fit 2 king size beds in the room with lots of space left. Although it was not as luxurious as those in the cities, but this is the whole purpose of it! Simplicity in the town of nature. Ha-ha.
We spent most of our late afternoon walking around the whole area from the palm estate to the spot of the hot spring then the rest of the evening was free and easy whereby me and my brother with a couple of families went to the hot spring therapeutic spot with individual pools and a stream of spring water running across the lane of rocks for foot reflexology. The temperature of the spring can reach till 50 degrees which we basically jumped like ants on a hot pan when we immersed our legs in the pools and especially walking on stones with hot water really made all of us went jumping like monkeys! XD there were various pools with different temperatures and all one has to do was just to soak your legs or immerse yourself into the pool of steaming spring water. It was really crazy at first since the water was so freaking hot, but surprisingly after awhile, you will actually get used to the temperature. We then went to the cold spot where an artificial waterfall lied and it’s actually a huge pool like those in Sunway Lagoon. It was really hilarious where the children will be sitting on us and we had a ‘pool fight’ and we men actually fought against each other. Hahaha! It was fun to see us drowning and defeating each other. Haha… then, it’s time for the hot pool where the water was even warmer than before. You can basically feel the scorching heat of the water on your skin especially when you’re topless =_=’ yeah… I was forced to strip…=.=’’’ and by the time when your lower body touched the water…my goodness. It feels like a zillion years…(you get what I mean especially for the guys =_=’…)
After dinner at the coffeehouse, we danced and sang all night long with the children. It was just fun all the way. Everyone was shy at first then all the funny dance moves started to kick in we were laughing our lungs out at some of the children and parents’ dances.
We went soccer with the children the next day in the morning after breakfast. It was another crazy moment. All the parents and siblings started screaming and yelling when the ball came to them or they’ll be yelling ‘KICK TO ME! KICK TO ME!!!’ hahaha…I actually played barefooted until I had my front toe injured =_=’ no big deal. Just a little blood here and there and that’s about it. XD but I still managed to pass the ball to them for our very first goal hahaha! Later on, we went for the egg boiling activity which was kinda weird to see eggs being ‘boiled’ in the pool of water. Can you imagine how hot the water was that only 8 minutes is required to have a full-boiled egg. See photos below :p
Went to pool again and had lunch before we checked out. It was really a journey worth the remembrance. Not only we got to experience all the interesting stuff but going on a trip with these kind of special kids made the trip even more meaningful than ever. =D definitely looking for another trip like that in future.
A scenic view of Sg. Klah, Felda. A walk in the palm tree estate. Therapeutic spot. That’s my brother with his forced grin. (It was really hot!) =D The coffeehouse. Party through the night! XDThat is my brother and one of his teachers, Melanie. The guy with striped-T is one of the French volunteers, Frederick. Mom with Ruben. =) The resort through my lenses. Not bad huh my photographing skills. :p The resort’s pathway. Ann, Seng Kiat, Mrs. Kerk and Pierre at the breakfast table. Brother, Mom and dad. That guy covering his nose at the right is me =_=’ Me, brother, Shawn, Pierre. Eggs in the pool! My dad's horrible photographing skills which captured my pathetically horrible grin =_='
A game of Tennis
Good day guys! I've decided not to post any poems today although originally I intended to do so and one friend of mine actually said 'Don't just post bout your poems lar...very boring you know...post something about your life mar...' =.=' yup... this was what he said..haha...
Anyway, it was quite an interesting day today. A buddy of mine and I went for tennis at YMCA and it was our first time having this game together as neither of us too had any skills..hahaha =P it was drizzling by the time we started off...and Bloody me, I should have brought a cap along as I have to play under the Bloody rain for a good 20 minutes =_='' but thankfully it was not that heavy and I seriously hope that I'll not fall sick coz I still have an outing tomorrow...back to the tennis court...yup...so there you go, the two of us, tennis balls 'flying' everywhere and I can proudly say that the balls too 'flew' out of court as well...hahaha...well you can't blame us right, after all these years of 'inexperience'...haha but somehow we managed to survived through =D it seemed like a rough start but gradually when we're more familiar and got used to the whole game, only then things turned better as there was less balls that flew out the court, BUT the amount of running here and there in the court had not been lesser..haha..well it's kinda hard to tell who is the better one but still I think Kit Wai can be accounted for it...i think his hitting skills and the way he grip and grab the racket was waaay better than mine as I still have the problem of gripping it like a badminton racket...so, way to go buddy!! haha...guessed he watched a lot of tennis tournaments =p as I said at least we made it through...was tiring though but Kit Wai was already half dead by then..muahahaha...Went back to college to change up, had a bottle of H2O and a slice of bread to prevent a 'stomach breakdown' (got such theory meh?) hahaha...and oh yes, I think we sweat more than we drank...haha..so you can imagine how drenched we were and how smart were we to wear a white top which he regarded as 'so sexy' when it drenched through our spine...hahaha so I din really dare to walk straight along the way, (you got the reason why... XD )
Therefore, Choon Hui + Kit Wai = possible DISASTER+plenty of groans =D hahahahaha!!!
It was nice game and good start after all =) at least we got to run around and we did a few cool shots and it was quite coordinated, surprisingly :-) in fact, no doubt that both of us had the strength but definitely not the skills...haha..so we need more practise indeed and more youtube I guess? haha! =D
Anyway, it was quite an interesting day today. A buddy of mine and I went for tennis at YMCA and it was our first time having this game together as neither of us too had any skills..hahaha =P it was drizzling by the time we started off...and Bloody me, I should have brought a cap along as I have to play under the Bloody rain for a good 20 minutes =_='' but thankfully it was not that heavy and I seriously hope that I'll not fall sick coz I still have an outing tomorrow...back to the tennis court...yup...so there you go, the two of us, tennis balls 'flying' everywhere and I can proudly say that the balls too 'flew' out of court as well...hahaha...well you can't blame us right, after all these years of 'inexperience'...haha but somehow we managed to survived through =D it seemed like a rough start but gradually when we're more familiar and got used to the whole game, only then things turned better as there was less balls that flew out the court, BUT the amount of running here and there in the court had not been lesser..haha..well it's kinda hard to tell who is the better one but still I think Kit Wai can be accounted for it...i think his hitting skills and the way he grip and grab the racket was waaay better than mine as I still have the problem of gripping it like a badminton racket...so, way to go buddy!! haha...guessed he watched a lot of tennis tournaments =p as I said at least we made it through...was tiring though but Kit Wai was already half dead by then..muahahaha...Went back to college to change up, had a bottle of H2O and a slice of bread to prevent a 'stomach breakdown' (got such theory meh?) hahaha...and oh yes, I think we sweat more than we drank...haha..so you can imagine how drenched we were and how smart were we to wear a white top which he regarded as 'so sexy' when it drenched through our spine...hahaha so I din really dare to walk straight along the way, (you got the reason why... XD )
Therefore, Choon Hui + Kit Wai = possible DISASTER+plenty of groans =D hahahahaha!!!
It was nice game and good start after all =) at least we got to run around and we did a few cool shots and it was quite coordinated, surprisingly :-) in fact, no doubt that both of us had the strength but definitely not the skills...haha..so we need more practise indeed and more youtube I guess? haha! =D
Thursday, September 18, 2008
Trapped within Ourselves...
Hey guys! Good evening! (The fact is I’m posting at night) duh! Ha-ha. Alright once again the poet’s instinct (ahem!!! Clears throat…) =P strikes me after an evening nap muahaha!. Anyway I’m in a midst of composing yet another poem; unfortunately it’s still under construction ha-ha. Will be up soon in no time =)
Sometimes, we often let our minds and feelings get the better of us. Try asking yourself how it feels when at times you just can’t seem to let out your feelings and it’s not that you don’t want to but you just can’t. Enough said. And I’m sure all of us here had been trapped before. Mentally, spiritually. When some circumstances forced us to be who we hated to be or forced us to suppress the feelings that makes our inside world goes round and round. Now this poem is closely linked to the dilemma and confusions faced by the persona and he eventually accepts them as these are part and parcel of life. it's called Trapped within emotions.
Trapped within emotions
Just like the devil and angel by my sides,
I am torn by feelings,
Confusions.
Didn’t know how to let them out
Didn’t know how to get by them;
I am trapped in my own soul,
Not being able to break free
I am confused,
So confused…
Between heaven and hell
I’m stranded on this unworthy air
Wondering around
Like a spirit
That just wouldn’t cross over
That belongs to neither here nor there
Again and again,
Happiness filled the void;
Again and again,
Disappointment shut my door tight…
Where do I belong?
Where shall I venture?
It doesn’t matter now,
Because it’s just part of life
That will cling to me for so long my breath is heard
Sometimes, we often let our minds and feelings get the better of us. Try asking yourself how it feels when at times you just can’t seem to let out your feelings and it’s not that you don’t want to but you just can’t. Enough said. And I’m sure all of us here had been trapped before. Mentally, spiritually. When some circumstances forced us to be who we hated to be or forced us to suppress the feelings that makes our inside world goes round and round. Now this poem is closely linked to the dilemma and confusions faced by the persona and he eventually accepts them as these are part and parcel of life. it's called Trapped within emotions.
Trapped within emotions
Just like the devil and angel by my sides,
I am torn by feelings,
Confusions.
Didn’t know how to let them out
Didn’t know how to get by them;
I am trapped in my own soul,
Not being able to break free
I am confused,
So confused…
Between heaven and hell
I’m stranded on this unworthy air
Wondering around
Like a spirit
That just wouldn’t cross over
That belongs to neither here nor there
Again and again,
Happiness filled the void;
Again and again,
Disappointment shut my door tight…
Where do I belong?
Where shall I venture?
It doesn’t matter now,
Because it’s just part of life
That will cling to me for so long my breath is heard
Monday, September 15, 2008
Life's clock
Good day guys! Oh I totally forgotten that I don’t need to say ‘it’s Choon Hui here’ again. Ha-ha! Yup. My official blog just for your reminder XD
So as I was browsing through my collection of poems, I was thinking how fast the clock of life ticked its seconds, minutes, hours, days, weeks, months and years away. (Phew! What a long one!) that is what I hate about time, that is why time is always against me. Hmm… against me?! Ah… whatever… Back to the point, where was I? Oh! About time. Right. So I decided to pick this particular poem to highlight how ‘pathetic’ time is. Just because you don’t have anyone and you existed ever since Lord knows when, doesn’t mean you can just steal all the precious time away from us =_=’ ha-ha I think Mr. Time will take revenge on what I said by making those boring classes last forever and those interesting ones will end within a blink of eye XD
Anyway, this poem is called Life’s Clock. Do comment and enjoy reading it.
Spring came and winter went
Flowers bloomed and nature sang.
I walked under an old oak tree
Leaves falling in the warm summer winds,
Filled my heart with tender breeze.
I picked a leaf beneath my feet
Soaked with strong smelling autumn scent,
Taken me aback.
Silent winter night, with cocoa in hand
I watch the snow-carpeted world through the glass,
How serene…
Has it really been years? That decades of my life has just been grabbed away,
Have I become a loyal slave of time?
Time come and go,
To where it flows,
I didn’t know.
Speeding off like a hurricane
That’s how it past.
Without a sound,
Without a hint,
That’s how it creeps away
Waits for no men, waits for nothing…
Nothing at all!
Not even a single freeze,
A break either.
Time heals, time hurts;
Someone returned to God,
Someone was sent to me on angel’s wings,
Everything comes and goes,
Once it is here, there’ll be no turning back;
But memories stay on.
Turning back time?
It just seemed light years away…
If only I could live till then…
God Bless.
So as I was browsing through my collection of poems, I was thinking how fast the clock of life ticked its seconds, minutes, hours, days, weeks, months and years away. (Phew! What a long one!) that is what I hate about time, that is why time is always against me. Hmm… against me?! Ah… whatever… Back to the point, where was I? Oh! About time. Right. So I decided to pick this particular poem to highlight how ‘pathetic’ time is. Just because you don’t have anyone and you existed ever since Lord knows when, doesn’t mean you can just steal all the precious time away from us =_=’ ha-ha I think Mr. Time will take revenge on what I said by making those boring classes last forever and those interesting ones will end within a blink of eye XD
Anyway, this poem is called Life’s Clock. Do comment and enjoy reading it.
Spring came and winter went
Flowers bloomed and nature sang.
I walked under an old oak tree
Leaves falling in the warm summer winds,
Filled my heart with tender breeze.
I picked a leaf beneath my feet
Soaked with strong smelling autumn scent,
Taken me aback.
Silent winter night, with cocoa in hand
I watch the snow-carpeted world through the glass,
How serene…
Has it really been years? That decades of my life has just been grabbed away,
Have I become a loyal slave of time?
Time come and go,
To where it flows,
I didn’t know.
Speeding off like a hurricane
That’s how it past.
Without a sound,
Without a hint,
That’s how it creeps away
Waits for no men, waits for nothing…
Nothing at all!
Not even a single freeze,
A break either.
Time heals, time hurts;
Someone returned to God,
Someone was sent to me on angel’s wings,
Everything comes and goes,
Once it is here, there’ll be no turning back;
But memories stay on.
Turning back time?
It just seemed light years away…
If only I could live till then…
God Bless.
Sunday, September 14, 2008
A night out...
Hello guys! Finally this blog has officially become my own very blog! Ha-ha! And thanks to Weng Chung that all the little little things and features on the blog are settled and he has his own blog as well http://www.wengchung.wordpress.com/. Do visit him! =D anyway, I really hope you guys will like the whole new feel although the major features like the font style and theme hasn’t changed much, but still this represents me. I love simplicity. Life doesn’t need to be such complicated isn’t it? =D
Anyway… just went back to MBS for the mid-autumn festival celebration. I just don’t feel like going back at 1st, but I’m still a Chinese and furthermore it was my ex - Chinese language teacher who organized it together with the Chinese cultural society. The whole thing wasn’t as good as last year’s maybe because I can’t really see any familiar faces around and boy during dinner time the ‘kids’ were REALLY acting like hungry ghosts, even the parents were acting as if they had been in a starvation! But can’t blame them though, in this kind of situation, if you don’t ‘fight’ for your food, nothing would be left. Hahaha. So in the end, we just had some and we headed to McD for our supper ha-ha! What better place to go other than McD? XD
Oh by the way, that day’s ‘gang’ made up of Weng Chung, Jian Fung, Harry and me. All of them are from the same class but funny I’m always closer to those who are in different classes haha. So we chat and chat and chat about basically everything until Jian Fung suddenly suggested or was it me who suggested going for a late night movie. Unfortunately only Jian Fung and me were able to make it haha! So we head back to school for to take some photos with Mdm. Chong then off we go to Pavilion for a movie called dark or black water (I can’t even remember the name, it shows how lousy the show was)
Anyway these are some photos taken on that day.
Anyway… just went back to MBS for the mid-autumn festival celebration. I just don’t feel like going back at 1st, but I’m still a Chinese and furthermore it was my ex - Chinese language teacher who organized it together with the Chinese cultural society. The whole thing wasn’t as good as last year’s maybe because I can’t really see any familiar faces around and boy during dinner time the ‘kids’ were REALLY acting like hungry ghosts, even the parents were acting as if they had been in a starvation! But can’t blame them though, in this kind of situation, if you don’t ‘fight’ for your food, nothing would be left. Hahaha. So in the end, we just had some and we headed to McD for our supper ha-ha! What better place to go other than McD? XD
Oh by the way, that day’s ‘gang’ made up of Weng Chung, Jian Fung, Harry and me. All of them are from the same class but funny I’m always closer to those who are in different classes haha. So we chat and chat and chat about basically everything until Jian Fung suddenly suggested or was it me who suggested going for a late night movie. Unfortunately only Jian Fung and me were able to make it haha! So we head back to school for to take some photos with Mdm. Chong then off we go to Pavilion for a movie called dark or black water (I can’t even remember the name, it shows how lousy the show was)
Anyway these are some photos taken on that day.
Monday, September 8, 2008
A Shadow behind 'A tale, a story'
Hello guys! Can you believe it Weng Chung decided not to share this blog any more…(sobs…sobs…) but anyway he said it’s for the better since this will only make our readers confused. Well I kinda agree with him and felt bad for this as well since this is supposed to be OUR blog…but I just wanna say thanks for inviting me to join you as a ‘guest blogger’ at the very beginning and eventually a sharing partner of this ‘ex-blog’. It has been one of a kind of a blog I should say. For as mush as I love to share, it’s kinda sad that we no longer can share our words under a roof but in two parting worlds. (ok lar, not that big deal but I’m just not used to having my own blog) nevertheless thank you Weng Chung =)
Now first things first. It seemed that some of my readers were a little puzzled over the last poem that I’ve posted. Well guys, not to worry as it is always the beauty of poetry that there’s no room for unaccepted perceptions, as long as the rationale is at one with our wits =D The reason why I came up with this particular title is because I’m telling a story based on a tale and vise versa as you guys know ‘tale = story’. The very first sentence or word of the heading is like a ‘main branch’ of what is going to be told. For example, ‘Destiny of tomorrow ~ Dreams or sorrow?’ we never know what our destiny will be like, and based on this scenario of this poem, the persona is questioning is he living in his destiny or is he merely ‘foreseeing’ the sorrow that he is going to face in that ‘somewhere’ which is laid in his destiny? It’s like a sub-title if I were to put it in general terms. Apart from that, it’s just a very random title selection that came across my mind during the process of completing this poem. I tend to ‘experiment’ with this poem by simply incorporating some narration and fresh new concepts at the same time keeping my own style in pen which I mostly focused on the title itself. I always loved to name my poems in simple yet ‘foggy’ words. The title may not represent what my poems have to say, but somehow, there will be links to what the title means. That’s my unique way of conveying the message across.
Back to this poem. As I said before, the inspirations behind this whole piece of writing originated from a movie I’ve watched (which I don’t wish to disclose the title) and that very instant I knew that I have to write a poem about friendship, confusions, fate and ‘never-lasting’ human bonds, but a lasting, spiritual bond. This whole poem may seem a little weird as to why these two strangers will end up being at the ‘mountain’. Well I leave it to you, readers. Once again, it’s all up to your own interpretations. Some may think that all the ‘mountains’, ‘snows’ and ‘winter breeze’ can be said as life’s hustles and bustles, or it could merely be seen as a pure encounter. In fact I thought of expanding this poem a little longer by telling the dwelling lives of the two friends after they had separated and how to try to forget each other, but looking on the fact that time is running out for me (unfortunately), I created a ‘dramatic effect’ to the poem by telling the readers that one of them had actually passed away when the persona said:
Till I heard from you again,
Was the day when you came to my dreams of sane,
That Lord had released your humanly sufferings and pains…
This part may be inserted abruptly, but not many of the readers can catch it. Nevertheless, I do appreciate that some of you guys responded to my poems and generated all sorts of perceptions and thoughts to be pondered. So thanks a bunch and keep them coming! =D
Last but not least, this poem is all about friendship, contemplations and unexpected events in life. You see, there’s no such thing as control in your fate. Yes, they said one is always in control of your future, but we, humans, can only go according to what we had planned for, and the rest of it is up to The person above. This is where ‘hope’ comes in. everybody can hope, and we are mere shadows, following the path of life guided by HIM.
God bless,
ChoON hUI
Now first things first. It seemed that some of my readers were a little puzzled over the last poem that I’ve posted. Well guys, not to worry as it is always the beauty of poetry that there’s no room for unaccepted perceptions, as long as the rationale is at one with our wits =D The reason why I came up with this particular title is because I’m telling a story based on a tale and vise versa as you guys know ‘tale = story’. The very first sentence or word of the heading is like a ‘main branch’ of what is going to be told. For example, ‘Destiny of tomorrow ~ Dreams or sorrow?’ we never know what our destiny will be like, and based on this scenario of this poem, the persona is questioning is he living in his destiny or is he merely ‘foreseeing’ the sorrow that he is going to face in that ‘somewhere’ which is laid in his destiny? It’s like a sub-title if I were to put it in general terms. Apart from that, it’s just a very random title selection that came across my mind during the process of completing this poem. I tend to ‘experiment’ with this poem by simply incorporating some narration and fresh new concepts at the same time keeping my own style in pen which I mostly focused on the title itself. I always loved to name my poems in simple yet ‘foggy’ words. The title may not represent what my poems have to say, but somehow, there will be links to what the title means. That’s my unique way of conveying the message across.
Back to this poem. As I said before, the inspirations behind this whole piece of writing originated from a movie I’ve watched (which I don’t wish to disclose the title) and that very instant I knew that I have to write a poem about friendship, confusions, fate and ‘never-lasting’ human bonds, but a lasting, spiritual bond. This whole poem may seem a little weird as to why these two strangers will end up being at the ‘mountain’. Well I leave it to you, readers. Once again, it’s all up to your own interpretations. Some may think that all the ‘mountains’, ‘snows’ and ‘winter breeze’ can be said as life’s hustles and bustles, or it could merely be seen as a pure encounter. In fact I thought of expanding this poem a little longer by telling the dwelling lives of the two friends after they had separated and how to try to forget each other, but looking on the fact that time is running out for me (unfortunately), I created a ‘dramatic effect’ to the poem by telling the readers that one of them had actually passed away when the persona said:
Till I heard from you again,
Was the day when you came to my dreams of sane,
That Lord had released your humanly sufferings and pains…
This part may be inserted abruptly, but not many of the readers can catch it. Nevertheless, I do appreciate that some of you guys responded to my poems and generated all sorts of perceptions and thoughts to be pondered. So thanks a bunch and keep them coming! =D
Last but not least, this poem is all about friendship, contemplations and unexpected events in life. You see, there’s no such thing as control in your fate. Yes, they said one is always in control of your future, but we, humans, can only go according to what we had planned for, and the rest of it is up to The person above. This is where ‘hope’ comes in. everybody can hope, and we are mere shadows, following the path of life guided by HIM.
God bless,
ChoON hUI
Friday, September 5, 2008
A tale, a story
Hello! It’s Choon Hui on the pen again. As I’ve promised before in my previous blog, what you guys are about to witness will be a piece of writing which was my start off point as a whole new writing style in my poetry. This is the longest poem I’ve wrote by far and the whole poem is very narrative, plus readers can either take the literal meaning of it or the root significance of the poem as it can go both ways. This is a poem about how the spark of friendship being ignited and not everything in this world will end up being ‘happily-ever-after’. As you can see the headings before a particular stanza, it is like a tale within a tale, a story beneath a story. This is why I came up with the title ‘A tale, a story’. Do comment on it and enjoy it!
A tale, a story
(~ The very fate – Encounter ~)
The moon shines bright,
In the middle of a starry night,
With winter breeze that went so light.
Listening to the mountain’s song,
Where an eternal feeling came along,
Of how much hidden words were kept in thought.
Emotions strike at an instance,
Our thoughts seemed so distant.
Somehow, we were lost in that moment.
It seemed so far away
That memories will stay,
And never give its way.
Little eyes of heaven winked,
It made me thinks,
Are you and I in someway linked?
Perhaps, time had what installed for us.
For faith it is like a charmed curse,
Once it clings, there’ll be no returns.
For as long as time exist,
It is just like a twist,
Anytime, it will be a miss.
(~ Destiny of tomorrow – Dreams or sorrow? ~)
True feelings revealed.
It’s only within the mountains our secrets can be sealed,
Once broken, our wounds can never be healed.
We laughed on like there’s no tomorrow,
Even though I knew we’ll soon face our sorrows.
Resisting them, I buried those burdens beneath the snow.
Despite the frost, days were like the summer’s morning,
Where linnet and crickets came to sing.
Life to us was just goodness of what it brings.
Of faith and friendship it conquered all,
Leaving us in awe,
For our bond will never be tore.
Beyond the mountains high,
We sore through the sky
And our spirit will never die.
(~ Fate’s misty mist – Tempest unexpected ~)
In the midst of an airy song,
A sudden gloom came along.
Stoning us down with a burden so strong.
The snow had stopped and the sun had set.
A day with endless sobering laughter have we left
Our hearts twanged like a fish being caught in a net.
It was time,
It was time…
For us to go back to the gruesome dwelling of life.
The path of life
Of unseen melody and senses five,
Brings to nothingness without thy.
Down the hill we descend,
Full of jagged roads and rocky ends,
Brought out the sorrow voice of this quiet land.
(~ Turmoil in Tears – A bleeding tale ~)
I saw you through the reflection,
A figure that will not be forgotten
Even if the world is torn open.
Sadness seemed to swallow us like a savage beast.
My heart sores and our hearts bleed,
And silent tears fell down like broken beads.
Have You not heard?
Of how much sadness and hurt
Had we endured?
(~ Destiny’s sparks – Will, or Never? ~)
Back to the valley of beginning,
Where our friendship budded like the flowers in the spring.
Separation doubted us, will this be the ending?
It still bites on as we went our separate ways,
And everyday,
It dragged us to the very deep of darkest rays
How I longed to see your face,
How fast time flew with its ever-hasty pace,
And how empty my soul was, when you banished without a trace!
(~ Gone with the wind - A shell’s emptiness ~)
Till I heard from you again,
Was the day when you came to my dreams of sane,
That Lord had released your humanly sufferings and pains…
Everything seemed to run in still,
Even heavenly beings and divine Mother mourned after you…
And I, I! The eager soul you’ve just killed…
The sun shines without its magnificent brightness,
The wind blew without its southern coolness,
The flowers bloomed without their petite loveliness…
Please let this be all a dream,
For I’ll plead in Your heavenly gleam,
Let me be in Time where we’ve been…
It turned to vain,
Still You whispered ‘for I will ease your pain’
No and no! that bloody stain will be forever remained!
(~ Book of Life – A page of forgotten time ~)
To search for a friend like you is like a million years,
I faced you with fear,
But in turn you let me to blissfulness so near…
For all the thoughts we had,
Secrets were shared and never were kept.
But something that I’ve never dared…
Was letting you know how much a friend you were,
And never mind if you are in heaven or here,
The music of our memories is all that mattered…
It is I should say a very emotional poem to me, as I am a friend to many people as well and I really do hope that you, dear readers will try to connect this poem to your daily lives and cherish each and every moment with your close friends and not only that, even your loved ones, they are always there for you to love, to treasure them. It may not seem such a big deal to you now, but believe me, once you lost them, nothing is worth your tears and remorse.
A writer's fate,
cHoOn HuI
A tale, a story
(~ The very fate – Encounter ~)
The moon shines bright,
In the middle of a starry night,
With winter breeze that went so light.
Listening to the mountain’s song,
Where an eternal feeling came along,
Of how much hidden words were kept in thought.
Emotions strike at an instance,
Our thoughts seemed so distant.
Somehow, we were lost in that moment.
It seemed so far away
That memories will stay,
And never give its way.
Little eyes of heaven winked,
It made me thinks,
Are you and I in someway linked?
Perhaps, time had what installed for us.
For faith it is like a charmed curse,
Once it clings, there’ll be no returns.
For as long as time exist,
It is just like a twist,
Anytime, it will be a miss.
(~ Destiny of tomorrow – Dreams or sorrow? ~)
True feelings revealed.
It’s only within the mountains our secrets can be sealed,
Once broken, our wounds can never be healed.
We laughed on like there’s no tomorrow,
Even though I knew we’ll soon face our sorrows.
Resisting them, I buried those burdens beneath the snow.
Despite the frost, days were like the summer’s morning,
Where linnet and crickets came to sing.
Life to us was just goodness of what it brings.
Of faith and friendship it conquered all,
Leaving us in awe,
For our bond will never be tore.
Beyond the mountains high,
We sore through the sky
And our spirit will never die.
(~ Fate’s misty mist – Tempest unexpected ~)
In the midst of an airy song,
A sudden gloom came along.
Stoning us down with a burden so strong.
The snow had stopped and the sun had set.
A day with endless sobering laughter have we left
Our hearts twanged like a fish being caught in a net.
It was time,
It was time…
For us to go back to the gruesome dwelling of life.
The path of life
Of unseen melody and senses five,
Brings to nothingness without thy.
Down the hill we descend,
Full of jagged roads and rocky ends,
Brought out the sorrow voice of this quiet land.
(~ Turmoil in Tears – A bleeding tale ~)
I saw you through the reflection,
A figure that will not be forgotten
Even if the world is torn open.
Sadness seemed to swallow us like a savage beast.
My heart sores and our hearts bleed,
And silent tears fell down like broken beads.
Have You not heard?
Of how much sadness and hurt
Had we endured?
(~ Destiny’s sparks – Will, or Never? ~)
Back to the valley of beginning,
Where our friendship budded like the flowers in the spring.
Separation doubted us, will this be the ending?
It still bites on as we went our separate ways,
And everyday,
It dragged us to the very deep of darkest rays
How I longed to see your face,
How fast time flew with its ever-hasty pace,
And how empty my soul was, when you banished without a trace!
(~ Gone with the wind - A shell’s emptiness ~)
Till I heard from you again,
Was the day when you came to my dreams of sane,
That Lord had released your humanly sufferings and pains…
Everything seemed to run in still,
Even heavenly beings and divine Mother mourned after you…
And I, I! The eager soul you’ve just killed…
The sun shines without its magnificent brightness,
The wind blew without its southern coolness,
The flowers bloomed without their petite loveliness…
Please let this be all a dream,
For I’ll plead in Your heavenly gleam,
Let me be in Time where we’ve been…
It turned to vain,
Still You whispered ‘for I will ease your pain’
No and no! that bloody stain will be forever remained!
(~ Book of Life – A page of forgotten time ~)
To search for a friend like you is like a million years,
I faced you with fear,
But in turn you let me to blissfulness so near…
For all the thoughts we had,
Secrets were shared and never were kept.
But something that I’ve never dared…
Was letting you know how much a friend you were,
And never mind if you are in heaven or here,
The music of our memories is all that mattered…
It is I should say a very emotional poem to me, as I am a friend to many people as well and I really do hope that you, dear readers will try to connect this poem to your daily lives and cherish each and every moment with your close friends and not only that, even your loved ones, they are always there for you to love, to treasure them. It may not seem such a big deal to you now, but believe me, once you lost them, nothing is worth your tears and remorse.
A writer's fate,
cHoOn HuI
Thursday, September 4, 2008
somewhere over the rainbow...
yes...somewhere over the rainbow where this blog has been deserted...poor thing..anyway..choon hui's here...sorry for all our blog's readers as Weng Chung and i haven't been updating this bloggie for quite some times adi..WENG CHUNG!!!!!!! BLOG LAR!!!!
It'll just be a very short one as i still have tons of work undone, however, i'll have another post very very soon as i'll put up a poem of mine where i've been working on for months. this is by far my longest that i've ever wrote =) and u guys will be the 1st few to read it =)
college life's certainly getting more hectic and our mid term break is starting soon...from this sat onwards for a week. and we have to pay up our exam fees which is a real BOMB to our pockets....sobs sobs..guess how much is mine...RM1480!!!!!!!!! for 11 papers... (O_0!) but at least mine is cheaper than most of my science streamed course mates that can go up to RM2100 plus... we are basically BUYING our grades =_='' been spending sooo much on my own for books again...just purchased a law book which costs RM29.50 frm Kinokuniya...my wallet has basically dried up...
had a test for literature today...we're doing KEATS...gosh...u guys have no idea how much i wanna swear in front of his grave...enuf said. we'ew having another test tomorrow which we'll be doing Emma...another dreadful chicklit which i really 'despise' gosh...uurrgghh!!! wish me luck and i'll see u guys in another blog soon...take care everyone and have a nice day.
ChOoN HuI
It'll just be a very short one as i still have tons of work undone, however, i'll have another post very very soon as i'll put up a poem of mine where i've been working on for months. this is by far my longest that i've ever wrote =) and u guys will be the 1st few to read it =)
college life's certainly getting more hectic and our mid term break is starting soon...from this sat onwards for a week. and we have to pay up our exam fees which is a real BOMB to our pockets....sobs sobs..guess how much is mine...RM1480!!!!!!!!! for 11 papers... (O_0!) but at least mine is cheaper than most of my science streamed course mates that can go up to RM2100 plus... we are basically BUYING our grades =_='' been spending sooo much on my own for books again...just purchased a law book which costs RM29.50 frm Kinokuniya...my wallet has basically dried up...
had a test for literature today...we're doing KEATS...gosh...u guys have no idea how much i wanna swear in front of his grave...enuf said. we'ew having another test tomorrow which we'll be doing Emma...another dreadful chicklit which i really 'despise' gosh...uurrgghh!!! wish me luck and i'll see u guys in another blog soon...take care everyone and have a nice day.
ChOoN HuI
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