A touch of frienship is a touch of goodness

On a second thought, life is not that bad if you have these bunch of friends to colour your day constantly popping up with surprises to cheer your day up =)

Needless to say, I'm referring to you guys =D

Ok...it all happened when it I actually lost my mp3 in college on Wednesday...yeah...sad indeed...there goes all my songs...but but but...that gave me an excuse to get a NEW one! hahahaXd how cool's that...ok i know i sounded so lame here, but I've been wanting to get rid of that Creative mp3 of mine which is battery powered =_=' and it's really in terrible condition till the extent it can shut down by itself while you're listening to the much anticipated chorus...hahah...so..I wasn't too depressed over it you see looking on the fact that I'll be getting the mp3 from a bran which I've always longed for since I'd regretted buying that lousy Creative piece of junk =P and so..I've got my self a B-series mp3 which costs RM149 for 1GB...not that expensive in fact...and I'm damn friggin satisfied with it.

Yup there you go, a splendid looking piece of device...haha...Thought of getting the black one, but as Kean Liang said, it's kinda dull and plus I actually wanted the white ear phones quite badly XD hence I decided to opt for this blue mp3.

All in all, I was very pleased with the quality and the functions available. However, the sound audio quality is definitely not as good as Creative's...I wasn't really expecting anything until when I was just walking around, surveying some other mp3s in Low Yat with Kean Liang, that Oscar nominated fella suddenly said that he wanna get himself a ear phone and asked my opinion about the sound quality and the colours available...being the dodo bird as I am, I totally believed what he said that he need one for his mp3 despite the fact that he already has a mp3 Walkman phone...and interestingly he kept on asking me if I were to own one, what sort of style would I like things like that...still I did not suspect anything at all!!! in the end we found an in-ear headphones which I'd claimed that I've never used this type before and again, I was curious why don't he buy now? in spite of telling he can lend me money if I were to buy the mp3 that day...

so on the next day, we all went and buy the stuff that we wanted to and while I was purchasing my mp3, he and Kit Wai went to the shop that we've been to yesterday to get the headphones. upon leaving, another Oscar nominated actor said that he would like to change the smaller plastic bag withe me and so the gullible me stupidly agreed. Within a few seconds, he said 'ei, your bag is not closed properly' and as I wanted to zip it myself, he insisted he would help me. (see how great their acting skills are? XD) ok...so I reached the Lrt station. Of course while you have the opportunity, one will always be eager to gaze at the precious that you just bought right? And so, I found that headphones were in my bag. even until this point, nothing at all crossed my mind and i even messaged him that he misplaced Kean Liang's stiff in my bag and I'll keep it for the moment until next Monday and guess what? the next sms i received totally came as a surprise to me as that earphones were an early Birthday present from 6 of them....and I was like...gaping in the midst of the confused passengers who were looking at me...hahaha...I ended up calling telling them that they're all Oscar winners...I always thought that no one can snatch away my title as 'the Best Actor' for...err god-knows-how-long XD until that very day....haha...as what ah kit said, this is the sweet revenge for my mischief all these while for always throwing surprises at them...ahaha...having said that, the earphones costs RM79.90 which in turn if i were to know, I'll certainly go for the cheaper one...hahaha...

And the sound quality is SUPERB...the bass is enhanced and blocks out most of the background noise...this is what you'll get for 79 bucks. What adds on to the quality is the touch of friendship. Though it's a present from a few, but the sincerity is enough to last for a lifetime.

Just a quick shout out to Kean Liang, KiT Wai, Ganesa, Stef, Divya, Michelle for the very 1st b'day gift! thank you guys! =D

I never know being appreciated or merely being acknowledge as a friend can be that great!

=D

Twetty-twitter

Yeah...twitter... I was browsing through a daily forum with updates of Mariah, and I noticed she had a 'twitter' account...so...I'm kinda curious bout that 'twitter' thing and so I went to check...and it's like a...ahh..I'm lazy to explain XD let the web do the talking...here goes...




Twitter is a social networking and micro-blogging service that enables its users to send and read other users' updates known as tweets. Tweets are text-based posts of up to 140 bytes in length. Updates are displayed on the user's profile page and delivered to other users who have signed up to receive them. Senders can restrict delivery to those in their circle of friends (delivery to everyone being the default). Users can send and receive updates via the Twitter website, SMS, RSS (receive only), or through applications such as Tweetie, Twitterrific, Twitterfon and Feedalizr. The service is free to use over the web, but using SMS may incur phone services provider fees.
As of March 2009, Twitter has received more visibility and popularity worldwide. Twitter is often described as the 'SMS of Internet' in that the site provides the back-end functionality (via its APIs) to other desktop and web-based applications to send and receive short text messages often obscuring the actual website itself. This extensibility of the service has earned it more popularity than it would have garnered if users had to visit the site to use the service.

Get it? haha...it's basically 'Facebook minus all the other functions except the wall where you can write anything' kinda boring but think of it, it's quite cool in fact for lazy people like me XD hahah..oh and you need followers to read ur updates on what u're doin...and u need to follow others to view their updates...so go get one guys! haha..this would be my page's address,

http://twitter.com/passion_chris

Anyway...the games carnival of my college will be held on this Saturday...and I'm just so lazt to type bout it now XD sorry u guys...haha...i'll update more bout that day's events later on..just came back frm college la...very sienz and tired...XD

I'll promise u guys photos this time..I SWEAR! XD

Of droplets and rain

Results were out yesterday.

And need not to say, I did badly. Enough said.

Well, the only thing I can say is that I got an A for Biology paper 2 and that I've FINALLY passed my Maths...yay...=_='

Sometimes, just like how Wai Lun said, life just get shitty. For all the hard work that you've put in, and this is what you get?

I'm not referring to anyone here, but a simple question, how do you guys define 'just' and 'fair'?


(Droplets of Rain)

Droplets
Droplets
Droplets
Droplets of rain,
Dampened the sadness plant in me.
Chilled,
Deep down the well of infinity,

No end - no end.

Until the final drop,
Roses blooming
Thorns beneath stems,
Pierced through my soul

Tearing apart – tearing apart.

Droplets of rain,
Taken me away,
To a place I’ll never be

Pricking beauties

Another day of idling around...sigh~~~ yeah...the guilty me... results are soon gonna be out...and even after all the vows and all the 'I-swear-I'm-gonna-do-this-and-that...' yet, I procrastinate, I delayed my revisions. To all you guys out there, don't be me, once that instant of fire came to you, go ahead and work immediately. Unfortunately, I skipped most of the moment instead, I did something else. And bear in mind, these 'fires and passions' don't come often...they're like luck that knocks on your door and there's this saying that goes,

'Success occurs whenever opportunity meets preparation'

Been to a screening of Shakespeare's famed 'Hamlet' directed by Kenneth Branagh at the KL Performing Arts Center (KLPac). Intensively portrayed and cleverly screened. I wouldn't say it has the best cinematography, but the portrayal of all the characters based on the original book is simply stunning. Actors and actresses like Kenneth Branagh as Prince Hamlet, Dereck Jacobi as King Claudius, Kate Winslet as Ophelia and Billy Crystal as the gravedigger adds on to the spice of the whole plot. Well, sad to say that Shakespearean tragedies are morbid (duh...it's a TRAGEDY isn't it?) hahaha, and seriously, without watching the actual plays or movies, one may find them extremely dull and morbid as the expressions and intonations sets the atmosphere to the settings and better understanding to what Shakespeare is trying to convey.

To be or not to be?
That is the question.

Somehow, I was in a deep trance of thoughts. Thinking that will it be a day that I will become half as confused as Hamlet.

Perhaps,

I already had.


(Pricking beauties)

Lying in the weariness
Of my soul and mind,
They intertwined
Like the roses and thorns.
Pricking beauties.
Tiredness swallowed me,

Is it time to sleep?

The golden butterflies

(Haiku in the sun)

One by one,
the falling pieces of Golden butterflies
dissolved with the wind.

=D

How's that people? This is my first attempt to construct a Haiku or Japanese Poetry. In fact at the very beginning, it did not struck my mind to make up one because initially it was a free verse and then while I was reading some poetry by Basho, suddenly I realised that this poem can be changed into a Haiku form and ta-dah! The birth of Haiku in the sun...hahaha...

Oh by the way, let me tell you how this poem came about. I was on my way home from a breakfast with my family. Afar, I saw the leaves dancing with a slight breeze on a bright sunny morning, and eventually fell to the ground. Therefore, they kinda looked like gold-tainted butterflies under the sun and once they drop, the gold colour fades. Hahah..that was my metaphorical poem...hope you guys enjoy it!

Just another gloomy day...

Ok...I know I know... I've officially became the King of ALL Delays and Procrastination =_=' but not that my blog is visited by many people...haha...

Busy busy semester. Too many things happened at once, it's unbelievable that our AS results are coming out next week...the moment of truth, the day where Hades awaits, with those eyes that penetrate right into your hearts like a blood stained sword...

Honestly speaking, I'm feeling so dreadful nowadays, not that I'm having any periods,XD but what is bugging me here were the unaccomplished satisfaction. Perhaps I'm just too sensitive, perhaps, I'm just that bad in everything I do. sigh~

(The Rainy days)

The Rainy days
With Rain
all day long.
Long, cold rain.
Droplets after droplets
Pouring down again and again
From the crying heaven
My dampened soul.
Dark, stormy clouds add on to the gloom…

That sun,
that hides behind those clouds,
will often peep though the tiny doors of eternity,
and the goddess of rainbow too came to the visit…

We’ll never know.
Never know when it falls again…

Whispers of Love...

Happy Valentine's everyone! For those who has been shot by the winged-boy Cupid, may the love between lasts for as long as the immortals can live and cruise through the journey of endless love.


And for those who are not yet in love, I wish you all the best and may you one day be able to serenade the love song and croon a love story to be made in heaven with that someone special of yours in near future.


For you guys whose heart had been carried away with the tormenting storms of breaking up, always remember,
Love, takes time,
to heal when you're hurting so much... (love takes time by Mariah Carey)


And for those who are doubting their affection, cast that thought aside. Tell yourself,
I still believe,
someday you and me,
would find ourselves in love again... (I still believe by Mariah Carey)



And hereby would like to dedicate a poem to all that are loving and being loved. As said by Helen Keller,
'The most wonderful thing in the world cannot be seen or heard, or touched,
but can only be felt in the heart!'

(Whispers from within)

Love me tender,
Despise me not.
To you I whisper,
In heavenly court.

Peonies in the month of May,
Roses in the yard of yours.
Angels sing me a way.
To dance you to the floor.

Love stained sonnets of Shakespeare,
And Keats with odes of the imaginary.
With you I shall not fear,
For our love is like Cupid and Psyche…

A moment of ironic sacarsm

What the hell =_='''

Ironic sacarsm?

Why not sacarstic irony?

*yelling and screaming and swearing and cursing like there's no tomorrow*~

Ever wonder what on earth do I mean? Even myself can't comprehend, can you?

OK...back to reality. Felt like a stranger to my blog now. Sigh...sorry dear, been leaving you for so long...wish I could be by your side...*I'm having gooseflesh now...* XO

Here I go again...huh.....

Anyway, it has been a new semester for me, a 'pathetically busy' sem for me, I'm not too sure whether I'm sorta 'enlightened' to the fact that time is running out or simply because I've grown matured in someway, knowing that frolicking time is over...that I've became more hardworking than my usual self. I guess time really changes us... (ah...poetic) as what Kenneth may say...hahaha

Yeah as I said, this semester is really packed with nothing but assiagnments, research and more revision...I think I'm slowly developing speed reading skills XD hahah...nah...that was just a joke...hehe...

So Valentine's Day is just around the corner, and I seriously hope you guys out there won't break up just a few days before Valentine's ok...(no I'm STILL not in a relationship) XD

And, keep visiting my blog often cos I'm about to reveal my first poem about the warmest feeling between LOVE birds =D

Moo...I'm free 'cow cow' from exams! XD

FINALLY! Those dreadful days were done! (well at least for now) haha! Funny thing was, despite of the previous excitement, that last day of exam to me was yet, just another exhausting day with endless chatter during the quarantine! XD

This is exactly the reason why I hate to blog after a long period of time (partly because i've became lazier, XD and I have absolutely clueless on where should I start =_=')

Exams?! =_='' I SERIOUSLY through with them! Like Clarissa said, MAJORLY screwed up Lit 2 for Emma and well, bio perhaps...sigh~ anyway...we'll just wait till the results are out during March and start saving for retaking papers XD (hello not cheap ok...140 bucks per paper)

Oh, right after the quarantine at 8, we went for 'yee sang' with the college buddies and thanks Eunice for bringing us together! Thank you Monitor! XD we ended up lou-ing the yee sang on a rectangular tray XD hahaha! had much fun with all their sarcasm towards each other and we kinda 'blew' the cover off Jia Hui for 'censoring' the names on his blog XD

Been busying spring cleaning the house and doing some last minute shopping...and boy the weather is killing! gotta get a few sleeveless shirts and I've been drinking few tanks of water everyday plus a few cans of 100 plus everyday =_='' and i've been eating all those 'heaty' stuff that are sooooo tempting and gosh...one would die if he or she were to deny the scrumptious texture in their mouth of the chinese new year food! XD

Currently, I'm indulging in the soft chords and country vocals of the Take That band members. 'how deep is yur love' was originally sung by the Bee Gees and I'm totally in love with Take That's cover version. Here's the MV...it's video is somewhat weird to me, but the song is covered well.



Gong Xi Fa Cai! Hei Pi niu er! (those who know Mandarin, u sure gonna know this XD)
may the year of Ox be a year full of uncountable blessings and may the god of fortune, wealth and health be around you 24/7! XD

I am who I am

I
AM
WHO
I
AM I WHO I AM?

I can't think of any titles....=_='''

Yeah... I can't think of any fancy titles for the time being...since I used to pay so much attention to the titles of my posts, I seriously have no idea at all about what title should I be putting at this moment....hahaha...let just leave it as it is....XD

So...changed my blog pic...well, it was supposed to be changed a long time ago, it's just that I'm being the lazy pig like I always do and partly because I don't have nice or proper pic and I wouldn't wanna put a huge pic of me (like ANDREW WONG) did XD...with a 'HOT' sign in his hands =_=' yeah...that was how bad...hahaha

Anyway, exams are coming to the end and I'm so distracted by the computer as I'm supposed to read the notes on Emma for my coming exam on Monday. And yes. I'm still here. =D how technology can be so of 'use' to humans eh? XD

Just had my Eng. Lit paper on Wednesday. Something silly happened that Clarissa just wouldn't stop cursing her brains out XD hahaha...but seriously...what the invigilator did was totally absurd and inconsiderate! I'm not gonna loose my cool here cos there's no point blowing myself to fire on something that is over and especially someone of no worth even mentioning off...therefore....but Clarissa!!! I'm on your side XD..do visit her blog and you would feel the claws on ur neck! way to go girl!!!! hahaha. It just doesn't make sense at all... i heard she was the exact same invigilator who invigilated the same paper last year and yet she's making a havoc out of it until Ms. Moey, our CEO had to be present just because my book and Amanda's had some scribbles, ok, I will say I did have a lot of scribbles BUT... they're with ink and it's frm my senior...what the heck am I supposed to do if no one including the lecturers couldn't find so called a 'clean copy' last minute? and since it's an open book test, what's the point of rubbing the scribbles off since the text book is allowed to be brought in? And who on the goddamn earth will have time to refer paragraph by paragraph of the notations where we don't even have a second to waste on flipping the pages...and psychologically, it really did affected us...ok...i'm not gonna start on this or else it would another dreadful post! haha XD

well...guess thats all for now and I just couldn't wait for the last day of exam...

6. 30 pm, Wednesday, 22nd of January 2009.

ngeyeh negyeh ngeyeh!!! XD

Hero~ a medly of emotions, feelings and voices

OK... I know I'm being a lil' over the top now... but...in fact I have no idea what so ever why on earth I'm suddenly so obsessed with Hero....gosh...I've been repeating this song for God knows how many million times XD anyway...here are some different versions of her Hero whereby she re-sings this #1 single back in 1991 I supposed and I think it's because of her upcoming project The Ballads which is already in stores now...apparently she's gonna re-shoot some music videos for her compilation album...to some people, it may not sound as good as the earlier version and some said she brought fresh-ness to the song, giving it a brand new feel. Whatever it is, I still think no matter what, that legendary voice is still within her and the voice control of hers can no way be doubted!




Now, this is another cover version of her song Hero by the Brits from X-Factor reality show...it's somewhat like the American Idol, but, I noticed the arrangements of their vocals are too technical and they're trying to make it near perfection..well...nothing is wrong with tha, perhaps we're just too used in listening to American Music which emphasized more on the arrangement of music and the general genre instead of the vocals. Still, it's worth the listen. Their vocals are really strong and this is what we called - true talents other than (Amy I got bee-hive-hair-and-i'm-rehabed Winehouse, Britney-I-shaved-my-hair-and-i-won-many-mtv-awards Spears =_='')

Exams and Entertainment

I am soooo totally in love with Mariah Carey's ''Hero''...

Ah...those gruelling examinations...what a week I had...and WHAT A MONTH I had. Few weeks of studyin Bio continuously, with extra 4 hours of revising in college =_='' and I seriously felt like puking...

So, Biology paper 1,2,3 are officially done, as well as Mathematics Core 1 and Core 2. Did barely ok for Bio, but I'm happy with paper 2 though, most of the questions that came out had been successfully attempted before ^^ hahaha....but maths...uugghh...

So, what is left...
13th Jan - Mechanics 1 (Lord help me...=_=')

14th Jan - English Literature Unit 1 (Drama and Poetry)
- Biology Practical unit 3

19th Jan - English Literature Unit 2 (Pre-1900 Prose)

20th Jan - English Literature Unit 4 (Modern Prose/ Post-1900 Prose)

22nd Jan - Biology paper 4

And I would be officially done with the AS examinations!!! Wohoo!!!

but as for now, the only paper that I had confidence in will be Eng. Lit. I doubt I would get an A as the allocation of marks and the way of marking is completely different since this would be the last year we're using this syllabus...a solid B would be more than enough. YES, I'M SERIOUS.

As for mechanics...I have nothing to hope for but a pass. Yes. It's damn pathetic and insufferable.

Bio...hmmm...in fact I have no comment at all. Just wish me luck and I shall be back blogging bout the post-exam activities and mayhem in no time XD take care people! all the best for those who are taking their exams out there in London! to Davidson, Ronnie and Andy who are also taking the Edexcel exams, all the best to u guys!

I'm still in love with 'HERO'...this would be her best performance of all time! trust me...you'll be mesmerized by her stunning power vocals...

Of Uncertainties and the Unforgetables

Could the writings of Jane Austen survived through the century with the well known novels like Pride and prejudice, Sense and Sensibility and Emma become famed if she were to be married and gave up because of her position as a female novelist at her time which promises nothing but a frail hope of despair?

I can live by a pen~ Jane Austen from the movie 'Becoming Jane'

Could John Keats ever finishes his poem 'The fall of Hyperion: A fragment" and produced something more than Ode to Melancholy and Ode to Indolence if he hadn't got his illness that caused him a life and questioned about the role of poet?

Do I wake, or sleep?~ John Keats from 'Ode to a Nightingale'

Could William Shakespeare's tragic plays and sonnets, being world renowned if wasn't for the drmatization and his quest to struggle thorugh the revolution and the swinging of school of thoughts from time to time?

To be or not to be?~ William Shakespeare from 'Hamlet'


The thirst for knowledge.

The quest of a poet's role.

The breaking free from a position of nothingness.

The uncertainty of life.

It just seemed like a dreamy yesterday...

Indeed...indeed...it felt just like yesterday...graduated from high school and waiting anxiously for college to start, and BOOM!!! here I am today, another semester of college life to go and then, sweet life is heard no more.

Yet another cliche oh-my-god-the-time-passes-so-fast moment. Oh yeah, as far as I wanna deny the fact and just move on with life, something still holds back and it forces me to accept the painful reality of how time is snatched away and of how much things that I wished I should have done or stuff that I shouldn't have done in the past. REFLECTIONS. Cliche indeed...well well...whatever it is, life still goes on in a single track, a one way ticket, a river of no return...yeah, both are oldies of the 70's XD

Anyway, I have no idea at all where to start of in this post as usual, but 1st things 1st, Happy 2009 to you guys out there, it's a brand new year, a fresh new start and the beginning of something new (well at least that's what I hope so XD) so, happy new year once again =D

I just can't wait to go back to college, not for the exams of course XD I'm just looking forward for the busy days and catching ip with friends and...well...for the day when Bio paper 4 is officially over at 6.30 p.m =_=''' I know..horrible time frame..thanks to the ang mohs...

Hmm....what else?? gosh its getting more and more boring here....hai....nvm then I'll judt end this with a poem called, Let it be time, for it is time...hahaha unique title huh..yea..its talking about how the persona wishes to just live a life which is kinda 'parallel' to time O.o? XD haha...well maybe the poem should do the talking..check it out! and may u guys have a great year ahead!


(Let it be time, for it is time)

Let me dissolve in time,
For it is too short a life.

Let me be grounded in a crystal ball,
For I will be in goodness’s memory forevermore.

Let me a sculpture,
For I can witness the aging of present to history.

Let me be an urn, buried in legend,
For old is gold.

Let me be a painting,
For a moment captured be forever framed.

Let me be written into poesy,
For words will be eternally remained.

Let me be one with You,
For You is where I begun in time.

A season of Greetings and Gifts and Santa! =D

Hey blog buddies and readers! Merry merry X'mas to you guys out there who are enjoying the parties and the fun! =D gosh..I'm so full of joy now...hahaha...In fact, I don;t really celebrate X'mas, but the songs, the atmosphere and the greetings had definitely made me indulged in the goodness of the tropical X'mas of ours haha! And since it's such a festive and colourful season, here I am again, with a poem called 'What a season' and of course, this is to be dedicated to all that I've known which are...ok I'm gonna have a list here and since there are just too many, guys, if your name doesn't appear, please, safe back the swearing and cursings coz you know that no matter who you are, those whom I've had conclicts with before, everything went with the wind =D and you must know that everyone out there that I've got to know will always have a space right here in my mind =D

I hear the bells jingle,
Such joyful tingling, laughter in the air

I see the snow falling,
O white snow, how pure and white its flakes

I smell the roasting turkey,
In perfection wih a toast of sparkling heaven.

I taste the sweet smelling candies,
That melt instantly in mouth and to the heart of mine

I feel the warmth in this winter wonderland,
looking at the smiles and faces of the children,
calling out to Santa.

A winter with so much to give,
I wish to be in this crystal ball forever.

(To the people whom I owed my life to)
My dearest Mom and Dad and my baby brother Choon Ming (though you're already 17, you forever be my little bro XD

(To my life-time high school buddies)
Wei Keat, Thiam Sang, Weng Chung, Jian Fung, Harry, Wai Lun, Kheng Hong, Andrew, Tuck Man, Kai Jie

(To my forever cheerful cousins XD)
Sherry, Michelle (yan-yan XD hehehe), Douglas, Dennis, Pei Chi, Di-Di cousin bro xD, Jaylyn, Jayson, and alot more..hahaha

(To my college buddies)
Kit Wai, Kean Liang, Ganesa, Eric, Stephen, Mark, Harry, Jia Hui, Kenneth, Brandon, Bernard, Daniel, Pradiv, Alex, Pang Yean, Chi Kean, Kah Kiat, Aaron

(To the unexpected?! yet beautiful ladies XD)
Stefanie, Clare, Divya, Sue Ann, Michelle, Kartigha, Elisa, Jessica, Eunice, Mei Xin, Denise, Alexis, Elizabeth, Snokee, Jessica, Ann, Devina, Shenam

(To the lecturers endless words of wisdom=D)
Mrs. Shama, Mrs Dharma, Ms. Lim(aww..XD), Mr. Ratna, Ms. Grace, Ms. Melalyn, Ms. Angeline and Ms. Khoo (she's a wondeful administrative staff and soon-to-be-lecturer *I supposed* XD

(To my former School teachers...fantastic people! =D)
Pn. Munirah, Pn. Gan, Mrs. Tay, Mr. Gopal, Mrs. Lee, Mrs. Chen, Pn. Chan, Mrs. Ramani XD, Pn. Katuri, Pn. Wong, Mr. Peraganathan and Pn. Chong =D

To my best friends...you know who you are and last but not least, to the wonderful acquaintances that I met along the way

Michelle Yoong, Elaine, Eunice Lee, Melanie, Joey, Siang Ling, Kit Yoong, Adam, Ken, Amanda, Pearly, WenJo, Alithea, Annora, Pit Wai, Mei Sann, Shaz, Shan Lin, Chin Hean, Johnny, Melvin, Pui Yee, Kah Yee, Cynthia, Ms. Valli, Nick Teo, Alan Teo, Chu-Wen

(From Australia)
Mickell, S.T, Bobby Rodgers, Michael, Chace, Kyle, Robert Wilson, Mr and Mrs. Wilson =D Sarah and Nathan

(From the States)
A Poet Who Loves To Sing Alves =D, Elnathan John, Monique Danser, Fiona Davidson, Hunter, Sarrah, David

(From United Kingdom)
Baden Ronnie(Wolfy XD), Charlotte Hubbert, John Wojja Fink XD, Davidson, Andy, Winston

(From France)
Sophie, Tibaulle, Allora, Lucy, Ann, Francis, Timothy, Pierre

Now this took me about an hour to dig into my memory files in search for the correct names...haha...but anyhow, I just hope you guys will enjoy the poem and most of all, have a fantastic and blissful Christmas! Once again, Merry Christmas and Happy New year! =D and I am going off to a gathering cum party cum chaos cum god know whatever... tonight hahaha! XD

A mind of its own

A mind with its never ending chain of memories, a mind of the unthinkable, a mind of a human being...

(My mind, my life. My life, My mind.)

A mind of world,
A world of mind.

Beaming with rays of life.
Drowning the last breath of life…
Into a cellar of deep, deep, darkness.

A place, where it is a home for fear,
It grows…
It is nurtured…
Standing small is the hardened stone,
Falling steep is the hero within…
The puzzle with countless pieces,
Floating on the sea of confusion,
Losing their ways
Losing their ways…
In the cellar they’re buried,
In the cold air they deceased.
What is left is what was left.
Turning into ashes…

A brand new existence.

A new breath of crisp air…
Sweet smelling scent that clears the mist of confusion.
A wave stronger than emotions
Washed over the shores of my mind,
Overlooking the endless ebony sky
Above the mighty cliff of my soul.
Where destiny of tomorrow came unfolding…
Piece by piece,
The puzzle will fit,
And the warmth will begin to fill that punctured void,
With blooms of passion-colored roses
And a touch of angels’ choir,
Slowly humming the pieces into place.
A garden of ease welcomes the fitted thoughts,
And we,
Welcomes the power of possession.

I am my life,
My life is me.

I speak my mind,
Sometimes, my mind speaks me.


oh..by the way, I had some of my poems posted on www.poemhunter.com. Just type Seow under poet's name and hope you guys will enjoy reading them!

The calling of a Voice, The souls separater~ If tomorrow never comes

Just within a night, a lot were wreckly injured, 10 were spent their last breath under the ill-filled junk, the rest had been cast a gloomy spell that will be bound, perhaps for a life time.

Have you not any mercy? You ought to be dead instead of the spotless souls. Too late for blames, may you live with the darkest dreams for the rest of your life. A bus driver? A soul separater!

(The flower without petals)

Why, dear Lord?
Why…
Haven’t you heard my prayers?
Haven’t you answered them…?

I’m…
I’m…
Breathing my last breath…
Dear Lord…
Real soon…real soon…

Why playing games?
Why the punishment
For a sin that I never longed for?
Why you tear the petals apart?
Those stings,
How hurtful…
Dear Lord…


Please put your imagination to play.

Guys, it's not that I'm as old as your grandparents, nor that I'm as long-winded as your parents, but try to think if your loved ones left you without any last words or unexpectedly...how would you feel? A simple question. How would you feel? No, I have not loose my loved ones, but with regards to the bus crash on Sunday,

How would you feel?

To me, I would feel like the flower without the petals around it.

Put not just your loved ones but your friends and everyone surrounding you in that tiny box of yours. Look at them, and

Tell that someone that you love, just what you're thinking of, if tomorrow never comes.
~ Garth Brooks

Of facing, learning and dealing...

Boy, people can be all kinds...and sometimes, it really gets on your nerves and facing, learning and dealing with these people can really make you go nuts!

I have just completed 2 driving lessons for 5 hours, (still it's merely 4 hours or lesser to be exact) since that instructor actually deducted the time to and from the place of lesson... =_='' and plus the time where he stopped for petrol and his BREAKFAST...(faints...) yeah...breakfast, and I'm not kidding...anyway we'll proceed to the next level.

So, this 'fantastic' instructor of mine was brought to me by my dad since he has got to know him earlier on and the fees was quite reasonable (not until what I mentioned earlier on) and I think he should be an 'okay' guy looking on the fact that he's my dad's friend and I would expect him to be a little more 'friendlier' than usual..but of course, on the fair side, I respected him as an instructor and I wouldn't want him to just 'kiss my ass' and ended up learning nothing. And then, nothing went wrong for the 1st 3 days when he drove me for a 5 hours talk, then six, and finally to the Undang test. That was not just about it. I thought he should be a reasonable man but turned out to be a total jerk. In fact, from the 1st time I met him, I have a sense of uneasiness and qualms that crept deep into my spine. But, I somehow shook it off my mind.

Not until the 1st driving lesson, the thought found its way back to my mind and proved that my 6th sense is right XD muahaha...which I'm just joking out of the fun =D Ok...so he took one whole hour and more to explain the main components of driving in the car itself and while he was blah-ing, I listened...yes, and I listened.

(Just a question, would you expect a new learner who has not been driving before for his whole life to absorb everything in one shot without even starting to drive?)

Furthermore, he also told me that 'ok nvm, when you start to drive later, I'll further explain to you and demonstrate...blah...blah...blah... then I started to drive. And my journey to HELL begun.

As I was driving, (for the 1st time in my LIFE), I made a few mistakes and one thing I have to admit that I am no quick learner and I pick up things quite slow at times, what more when my mind was filled with uncertainties and I was feeling a lil' bit nervous that moment. So I entered the wrong gear a couple of times and I left the clutch too fast while it's still under gear one, and I while I was changing gear, I accidentally stepped on the oil pedal a few times as well, and so...the scolding and yelling started. ON THE 1ST DAY OF MY LESSON PEOPLE!!! At the beginning I was contemplating perhaps I'm just too dumb to learn up the skills, but it is still my 1st time and I'm bound to make mistakes isn't it? tell me guys, if I'm wrong. Who doesn't screw up on their 1st time? (ok...maybe people like Thiam Sang, Jia Hui, Kishu and Kit Wai who are really smart enough to pick up everything in advance) other than that, people like me? no way! Seriously guys, I wish you were there to witness how terrible insulted and scolded me...you may say that I'm sensitive and I can't even stand such a small matter, wait till you're in my position and trust me, that fella will be out of the windscreen instantly...

So, I didn't utter a word at all but I kept apologising to him, it turned to vain. That shit face was not merely condemning or advising me on what to do but he gave me a-punch-right-in-the-face type of criticism knowing I am a fresh learner...I kept quiet the whole journey partly because I'm just too scared to go against him and I didn't wanna create any mess verbally. Until the second day of lesson, he kept on going until I was too nervous and the car broke down twice. That's the straw that broke the camel's back, I countered back at him, IN A NICE WAY...and his excuse? ~
'but I've taught you before and this is not the 1st time you drove already, you still make the same old stupid mistakes no matter how much I've told you, you people are always like that, when the instructor are pointing out ur mistakes and you people make a havoc out of it and said we're scolding you...'

And guess what he was doing that time? EATING HIS CHAR KUEY TEOW...

What the F*CK?! TO HELL WITH YOU I CAN LEARN WHEN YOU'RE OPENING YOUR SHIT FILLED MOUTH AND GIVING ME PRESSURE! I will not swear if nothing provokes me to this extent and I'm sorry blog buddies...

So the lesson went on and he cut of my conversation several times when I'm explaining my situation also IN A NICE WAY...hence, I was fed up and I zipped. So did he. At the end he actually apologised to me 'if he said anything wrong and he was sorry' which I doubt it was sincere by listening to his tone but I accepted it after all.

Told my parents about the incidents and I was quite surprised with their reactions XD I kinda expect they would say he's just a strict guy who who wants perfection, instead my mom told me that she did not seemed to like this fella when she met him earlier on. Great...at least they're standing by my side...Mom even taught me how to give him back if he attacks me again... XD haha...

But I still have another lesson with him (sighs~) and dad told me he would find another instructor for me just for the extra hours. I don't mind to have him throughout the course cause if I'm able to face these people, life would be easier for me next time but to accept their love in full, I agreed to change =D

Therefore the lesson is when you guys ever came across these kind of human, do not ever let your raging emotions get the better of you. Listen to what they say, calm yourself and later on, counter them back in a nice way (which is what the M'sians say 'give them back kao-kao lah') XD haha..about this aspect, I would say I did it, but I'm still in the midst of learning..and most of all, DEAL WITH IT as you never know that you will be working with these people for your whole life!

Phew! So done am I =D

Into reality of acceptence, ready am I?

Good day people! Gosh..i know guys..i'm so so so sorry for not posting anything for god knows how long...a couple of things happened...the not-so-nice ones...but...today..i'm back with...what else but WORDS XD

So, for as long as I'm gone, it has been a roller-coaster, no, waaAy more than the roller-coaster spin!!! my oh my...this is life people..this is life...

Ok...I know I'm rambling here, lets just get straight to the issues. So, not long ago, Wei Keat just went off to Canada to live his dreams~ in becoming a top-class Aircraft Engineer =D and we've been to his farewell gathering which was kinda...intense, somehow... you have to be in my position to know exactly how I felt at the very moment when time ticked away and it's almost dinner time which means we may not see each other again after that dinner...

The reason why I did not want to post about the gathering is that...I don't wanna be reminded of that day's event...well nothing much in particular for some of y'all, it may seemed like just an ordinary gathering and friends leaving blah blah blah...but that was the day where few of us indulged in the very last few moments together of what we called 'close friends' or better still 'life-time buddies' (ok don't get me wrong, no one is DYING here) =_=' but try thinking about it, 5 years, err...may be 4 years, yeah 4 long years of friendship and what I mean by friendship is the REAL friendship...which lasts for a lifetime...not worth talking about it?

GO-TO-HELL

For those who has the balls to think that way. Period.

Then there came separation. The moment when the lift closed its huge, cold, lifeless metallic door, our emotions sprang out like a cheetah preying on its prey...I mean although I controlled my emotions well and I didn't had a teary eye, that horrible feeling that churned and churned in you was truly unbearable.

Over the days, as I've really came to accept that separation is merely part and parcel of life, and what would I be if either one of my parents have answered Lord's calling? Could I be crying and whining forever? Could I stop the time right there or just be travelled back in time or I could make myself another parent again? Never will I...

And that is why the Chinese always said, 'there is no fate without separation'. How true.

So what's the big fuss about it? are you Gay or what?

GO-AND-F**K-YOURSELF. Period.

I certainly think emotionally attached to someone has nothing to do whether you're gay or not and (if you are, that's a whole new issue) but back to the point, Wei Keat and I and our 'gang' had been inseparable ever since we've known each other...I've learned to accept and whatever it is, we are just happy for him as we know that this fella had struggled through life not physically but psychologically (he's not mad people =_='')

And then another painful separation. A t the train pick up station. Well thankfully no one really burst out sobbing or else it would be inconsolable...I felt quite numb that day, maybe because I've been through so much other than this and probably because major part of us had been let go during the night after the farewell gathering. Wei Keat's expressions were almost intense and it was not his usual self. We can't blame him though, he's off to a whole new world, all by himself and brace the storms that are yet to come.

And they are gone: ay, ages long ago,
...fled away into the storm.
(-John Keats~ The Eve of St. Agnes)

And life goes on...without single break or freeze. Have I really let go? Have really accepted that separation is inseparable with life?

Have I?

Down in the flood of remembrance, I weep like a child for the past.
(D. H. Lawrence~ Piano)