Totally random

Well I guess my blog has officially died off. Oh well, no point resurrecting it when there is Twitter - a wonder of its own! haha...sounded like I'm ditching this blog. Well in fact, I am having that notion to be honest with you. Unless, I am assignments and exam free, then MAYBE, I'll continue blogging. OR, IF I have any INTERESTING thing to blog about OR when my life gets INTERESTING enough, *notice the capital letters* =P then, I'd blog again. As for now, sorry my dear blog, I'm gonna neglect you and let you stand all alone in cyberspace, but occasionally like now, I'll just come and dust every now and then, and perhaps air the space, *now I'm sounding like a maid*

What else can I say? Rough couple of weeks, that dreadful business law assignment was just flushed down the pigeon hole, and now, MORE ASSIGNMENTS. Yeah. like a 1200 words for 2.5 marks. How worth it.

Anyway, I'm gonna abandon this for a while and maybe until I get to Sabah this July, you guys might expect something more interesting than this.

Adios! =)

When two worlds fall apart.

Hey guys. I gotta hang on to the 'postmortem' of my poem first. But I think I have to blog about this. If not, you guys will be attending my funeral.

Why? Dear Lord Buddha, Why? I still can't shake myself to reality. Please, let all these be just a dream. A bad one. I'm lost for words to pen a poem and I'm still lost for words to write about anything.

All I could say, it was a tragedy. At least for me. It's like you're between heaven and hell and you have no idea which way to go.

Today, nothing matters to me ANYMORE except the 2 person where my heart will always belonged to and my studies. THAT-IS-ALL. Nothing and No One else.

At that moment of time, I felt life has failed me. Or rather, God has failed me. But I have to hang tight because of the two person I will die for and loved. Life has to go on and no worries guys, I'm not leaving a suicide note or something because it's just not worth it.

Like the song, 'I will survive.'

The perfect ten - taking a look into 'the making of'

¿Cómo estás guys? How are you doing?

I take take that not many people will be reading my blog already, nevertheless, I will still post up some random stuff from time to time so in case if ANYONE would still spark an interest in my posts =)

So for this time being, it will be more or less a continuation from where I'd stopped last. Some of them asked me, how did the last poem came about? It wasn't an easy one to start off looking on the fact that I had sort of 'retired' for a while from penning poems after poems back then. Initially, it started as an idea and I actually started to write a few lines and thinking maybe I shall add a little twist to it and perhaps make it significant since it will be my first 100th poem. Then I promised myself, why not complete it by my 20th b'day and add to the significance? Hence I really thought that was a brilliant idea, so begun the process.

So, this poem is rather close to me as it sums up what I had been through while I wrote all my poems before. Like any other people who writes, inspirations came like the rain. The indefinite nature of ideas and the fluidity of words. Some of my closer friends will know that my poetry based a great deal on human emotions and just like my life, where ups and downs are inevitable. When life treats me cruel, I pen poems. When life treats me and others kind, I pen poems. There were instances when my life was experiencing a turmoil and the poems I wrote represented pretty much the emotional struggles I experienced. Sometimes, I look within myself in order to understand the world and not just about myself, a great deal of my poems as well revolved around other humans. Therefore, fragments of words will be linked and eventually, a full picture emerged.

That's how 'The Perfect Ten' came about =)

The perfect ten

I don't care whether age is just a number or not when I'm loved by so many people whom I never thought will remember this momentous day! =)

I've finally completed a very poem which I've intended to finish by my 20th birthday and fortunately, I did! thanks to YOU who gave me so much inspirations and the will to carry on...

The poem is called 'The perfect ten' as it comprises of 10 lines and 10 words weaved into a stanza. I'll tell you guys more about the inspirations behind this poem but for now, let me present to you a piece of words which might not have meant anything to you, but something significant to a part of me.

A long way since I came, for words I hunt.

At times the fountain flows, sometimes it puts a blunt.

O how swift the wave, cascading the ocean down and

In darkness, I discovered a weeping child, looking into me.

Even in the blazing sun, around me, dark butterflies danced.

As I wonder with the butterflies, I hear my heart.

The rest is silence. Whereupon silence is when I begun.

Where line by line, they will join. Threads of poetry.

A long way since I came, for words I hunt,

To hunt for this perfect ten. That’s what I meant.

Thank you mom and dad, Sherry, and Danny for the special gifts I received form you guys and to all you rocking people out there! Thank you for all the wishes and love you sent to me.
Thank you, Gracias, Obrigado, and xie xie! =D