Friday, October 30, 2009

Raining of thoughts...

Somehow, the weather actually stands a huge part of the significant representation of our mood, or should I say feelings?

Was raining heavily right after I took my first finals examination yesterday - Psychology. I wonder if it was just a mere coincident or perhaps an omen hinting me the worst was yet to come, or telling me how unprepared and how deserving I was for feeling bad about the exam. And yes, I did not have a casual and cheerful thought despite the completion of a much anticipated paper. Of course I wouldn't say that I'd gave my all but I dare say that I've tried my best. Much more than before. So, a regular downpour or a sign?

I wasn't too happy about it while I was sitting there in the library, facing the open compound while trying to read up some articles for next week's International Studies when the sky was so dark and out of a sudden, it rained like there was no tomorrow. As I was trying to concentrate, a stream of words just came into my mind...after a long time, the fountain of poesy came alive and halfway constructing a poem, Fatin came along and we just went for a tea at the cafeteria which offered no 'happy food' according to Fatin, my lovely course mate XD

And today, Danny, a good buddy of mine came over, supposedly to study, but ended up chit-chatting for the whole afternoon while having lunch and apparently his legs were itching too as for mine XD so we decided go for a jog later on as I really need one since my belly is becoming more prominent (haha..) In fact the weather was kinda 'moody' I'd say xD but I sorta guess that it wouldn't rain but Danny insisted that it will...and we had a bet...

Why the heck am I sounding more and more monotonous? It's like I'm writing a lap report....

Anyway, back to the topic...so we had bet and that sneaky fella got me promised to post up my after-jog photos on Facebook which I was so reluctant to do so...'dahlah aku tak photogenic, then peluh kuat pulak...' sigh~ oh by the way the photos are on fb...and plz don't check it out if necessary xD

While we were almost reaching the other side of the park, we had to make a detour as it was already drizzling and I thought that we could just run home in time before the rain got heavier but lady luck wasn't on our side and certainly no more ON MY SIDE! and that's when I lose my bet..yay~ =_='' it was already quite heavy when we tried to run into the nearest porch available and thankfully there was still room available for the 2 of us but my goodness, the wind was so heavy until it further drenched our clothes....

It was kinda awkward as we were sweating and panting like mad dogs and imagine this: *when we ran in, everybody just stoned and roll their big eyes over us and when we turn back, everybody resumed to their conversations...we were like...=_='*

Seriously, what's so 'dramatic' about us? Tak pernah tengok orang putih ke? atau tak pernah tengok orang berpeluh?

...

But in a way it's kinda funny as well judging by their expressions and looks..haha

We were literally stuck for almost an hour and at point we peculiarly ran out of conversation and this was when I went into a deep thought while watching the downpour. The rain almost, always has an effect on me when I'm drifted off into a sea thoughts...

I was imagining that if the place where we were standing was a boat, or a ship and the only difference was this boat was immobile, and I was thinking as we were running into that little 'hut', it just overwhelmed me that this could be a safe haven for us and I felt sheltered and thankful that there's still a place for me before being carried away by the 'sea current'. As the wind got stronger and so did the millions of water droplets. That moment in time, it was as if the forces of nature was gonna tear our boat apart and when I felt the chilly wind accompanied by the rain hitting on my back and my shoulders, I even saw some children running into their parents' arms and tugging their little heads into the warmth of their parents after hearing a load roar of the thunder, flashed with Zeus' thunder bolt. The rain got heavier and heavier by the second, and feelings of helplessness and vulnerability just kicked in and I wonder how long would we still be trapped here? and at the same time I was also wondering if I'd get sick since I was sweating so badly when the wind was howling away and freezing my body to death...worst still, I was wearing a thin material which was furthermore sleeveless...*shivers* I could not bring myself to reality until Danny nudge me by my tummy and realized that the rain had subsided...how long I've been in a 'trance', I seriously couldn't tell. One thing for sure was that I felt slightly cheerful than before as the worst turmoil had passed us by and what was left was the last drops from the clouds. Thinking that we might be able to leave soon, yet again, I was thrilled by a sense of gladness and gratitude that the boat could finally sail on a calmer sea and we'd all be reaching the land and leaving the sea soon. How great was that. I've tried to relate this to Danny, but I guess we're just too tired and distracted to listen to each other, so I've decided to blog it out.

Yes, the rain somehow made me came out with all sorts of funny imaginations (which most people would relate to) but as for me, it's like a life experience.

We begin our journey,
we met obstacles along the way,
we felt that life just doesn't treat us kind,
but if we're strong enough to persevere, to endure it all,
and not make stupid decisions like jumping into the sea and tried to swim, in our case, tried running home under the rain and got sick,
troubles will eventually vanish, and as I've blogged before,
there would always be a rainbow after a wash,
and off we go again, continuing our journey
under a bright sunny sky,
till we reach our desired destinations.

Yeap! that would be all for now and before my readers got sleepy enough after reading this post, here it is, a more 'decent' photo of me (though not for the actions xD), at least I'm 'dried' at last..haha

I was actually yelling at Danny to stop taking my picture and who knows he handled the camera so well until he caught me in this 'bitchy' pose XD

Till then and I'll post up a poem tomorrow IF I could complete it by tonight =D

Have a nice evening guys!

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Those little brats...

UGH!!! Those pimples!!!! Why can't you just leave me alone? And why does it had to happen to me? It's easy to tell me that maybe I do not have a proper face hygiene (which is SO NOT TRUE) or to tell me to try this and that, even to comfort me saying that oh they'll disappear soon enough later in time...b-l-a-h...

Yes, I am severely attacked by the 'polka-dots' and implanted more than 30 scarring bombs that seemed to be random enough to 'generate' more pimples and having a certain season where they'll be blooming their way through...I just hate it...

I HATE PIMPLES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

At times, no matter how much junk I've ate, nothing will happen but when I really took care of my diet and sleep, they're apparently playing an opposing game with me.

I've tried all sorts of products and eventually, I really gave up...found a product on net which seemed to be really effective and people who underwent the program achieved a 100% success in vanishing those pimples...but the only thing is, it's too pricey =(

How I envy you guys who have clear and glowing faces... =(

Thought of blogging about the Singapore trip and about the High Distinction that I scored for one of my major assignment, but after looking into the mirror, there goes my mood. Sigh~

Sunday, October 11, 2009

It's becoming cold

My blog is seriously dying off...the intention did came into my mind to discontinue blogging for the rest of my life...apparently I'm the one visiting blogs and the amount of comments I'd left on chat-boxes is more than I the amount I blogged in a month. Yeah...I guess I know the reason why and reckoned that perhaps it is my posts that bores people off...oh well...that's my life you see and guiltily speaking as well, part of the reason that I do not blog often is because I-AM-LAZY XD ta-dah! and to me changing the fonts, colors and sizes of the wordings is just so troublesome....so that explains the monotonous fonts that I've been using FOREVER xD

So, another week after the semester break and I've just handed up 3 assignments upon reaching Friday and all I could say that I think I did RUBBISH...for the first time in my life, I never had to do 3 assignments in a week...and mind you, it's never wrecking....just a friendly advice...to you guys out there who are still not enrolled in any universities yet, PLEASE enjoy your life as much as possible until you receive your tertiary education. Hmm...maybe it's just me...the not-so-smart-one...forget what I say, perhaps you guys are way better than me academically =D

Another 2 assignments pending and scheduled to be handed up next week, Wednesday and Friday consecutively which means that I am still procrastinating to complete the Psychology Lab Report t_t

As much as I've swore and vowed not to get in to that bad habit, I just can's seemed to take that sticky sticker off me...
Right after standard 6, I promised not to procrastinate but it carried on
Right after my first exam in Form 1, I vowed not to study last minute, but it never happened
Right after my PMR, I told myself to study beforehand and never wait till the last minute, it still carried on
Right after SPM, still...I kept on 'vowing' until the day I got in to Monash...

I guess I shall blame it on human nature?

At the very least, I am thankful the nature of me being anxious all the time did serves a purpose as I think I might have take things more seriously than before...at least for the assignments XD

Anyway, I am learning to be thankful for everything =D

Oh and before I log off, I really want you guys to listen to this. Not because she is Mariah Carey, but her whistle not at the end is by far THE BEST REGISTER THAT I'VE EVER HEARD! This song is called 'I want to know what love is', originally made famous by the 80's band, Foreigner. With a zest of RnB and touch of gospel style, Carey really spiced up that song.


Friday, October 2, 2009

My whole WEEK of mid-semester break

Hey peeps! Check out what I've done for the whole of my mid-semester break! It's fun!

-Gathering information for Communication Studies major assignment
-Having information overload
-Sitting in front of the computer for hours doing browsing 6 or 7 adds at one time
-Having information overload again
-Read through the prescribed readings again
-Gathering MORE materials for the assignment
-Noticing that I might have interpreted the question wrongly
-Almost sweared and cursed on Twitter
-Laze around in front of the computer O.o
-Losing all my mood to begin writing again
-Wasting time watching pointless video clips on YouTube
-Wasting MORE time constructing sentences for my essay
-Sitting in front of computer for another FEW hours to gather MORE info
-INFOMATION OVERLOAD ONCE AGAIN
-Walking around the house back and forth to construct sentences
-Almost knocked the computer out of it's casing
...

And it kinda goes on...a cyclical process... how INTERESTING my week huh? =_=

OK lar, at least, I did hang out a bit with my high school friends and going to Malacca this weekend....

Still, my essay is not completed...

But I'm proud to say that at least, I still hand up on time and while I procrastinate, I did my very best on everything and answered the question as it required (at least that is what I think) tsk tsk...

2 more assignments to go... X(