O how my life passes by

Here comes the sun, here comes the rain,
Here comes the fun, here comes the pain,
O how my life passes by.

This could very well being engraved on my tombstone when I return to the earth's slumber.
I tend to ponder quite a bit on the moments of life that brought me here to this point today. All the what-ifs, the questions seemed to tumble upon me, making me feel so, imperfect, vulnerable. There went my poem, 'a soul to weep', there went Carey's 'Memoirs of an Imperfect Angel'. Never did I experienced a day without comparing myself to the mass, never did I have the chance to just appreciate myself and not pushing myself too hard till I crumble, and yes, I never did. It is just recently that I've finally cleared my mind and made myself occupied with some stuff, only then I slowed down a little. When one is not tied up to that particular feeling that clung on to you a while ago, once it came back in fragments, gosh, how unbearable.

It's almost Christmas time but I'm not sounding festive at all. But argh, what the heck, as if there is ANYONE at all that cares about my blog. Call me vain, call me a sucker, call me a loser, and yes, I am. To hell with it.

Have I ever proved myself right? Have I justified my points clearly? For you people who just loved to judge, you tell me. Wait, hold on,

Keep it to yourself.

Not because I'm afraid, but because I'm fed up.

I gave up.

Nothing but bliss

Bliss Bliss Bliss...nothing but Bliss =)

At the moment, indeed there's nothing but bliss. I'm having my income (not a lot but still...), I treated my parents to a nice meal, I bought my much anticipated mp3 and earphones, I'm getting a new laptop tomorrow and most of all, I got my results, which I NEVER NEVER EVER dared to expect especially the '2-word' grades- High Distinction. To even think of it is like sitting on the same couch with Mariah Carey drinking champagne...but it so happened that maybe I couldn't get Mariah, so SOMEONE ABOVE decided that I shall be granted 2 HDs XD haha...not that I wanna boast but...the truth is, I had LITERALLY...listen up, LITERALLY given up on one of my papers which a HD popped out when I checked my results...goodness..it really gave me a heart attack at that exact moment! TAlking bout IRONY, I only got 2 credits for both Psychology and Communication...guess I gotta switch my majors to International Studies and Management! xD Nevertheless, I'm really grateful and blessed for what I've got..though my GPA is positioned at 3.0 out of 4, I'm totally humbled by my results and the only thing now is to work even harder to eliminate all the credits and maybe score some Distinctions and more HD's in future =D

Other than that, I just have to leave it to HIM =)

You see, the exams were the only one that had got me so worried that I even dreamed of failing the Management paper. So basically, I have not been freed since the last day of exams, so to say. But the psychological prison released me after knowing what I got. Yes, my results might not even be a good one, let alone being impressive to some people, for a person like me who did not really had much of a academic record, this is like winning a goal medal. Daniel, you got what I say =D oh and by the way, congratulations to you too Daniel for scoring 2 HD's as well =D yay for us!

*Fireworks going off with clinks of glasses ;-P*

That would be after you return from England =D

So, apart from this blissful moment, I had also bought my fabulous 2GB Sony mp3 with superb sound enhancing system and a fantastic in-ear earphone to compliment the richness and goodness of music which I even longed to take the train to my workplace just so that I can indulge in my music with 50% of noise blocked by the RM 80 earphones xD It was rather expensive but heck, it's worth the quality!

Then then then...I'll be also getting a laptop as my uncle had wanted to surprise me with an early Christmas present. It was meant to be a surprise but my mom blurted it out because she can't stand lying to her own son xD hahaha! So I guess, I'm blessed in a way as HE still loved me =)

Also, I had a splashing time for half a day with my family since this morning. I treated us to a heavy breakfast which we then went shopping around hunting for Christmas presents and treats for both ourselves and for my cousins before having lunch cum tea...ended up with ate more than we walked xD the food in Pavilion is really good...the restaurants are superb and the Food Republic is simply splendid! Went home with bags of goodies and when I thought of getting some personal items, my mom asked me to buy in Singapore which we'll be going this weekend and I was like... =_=''' you actually want me to go ALL the way to S'pore just to get my underwear FOR EXAMPLE...Mom can really drive us all nuts at times...

Still, I had a blissful December =)

I love my results,
I love my family,
I love my poems,
I love my mp3,
I love my vanilla ice-cream and
I love my Honeydew sago dessert =)